Yup.

Know what?
I realize i dont really talk to other people except for,
close friends.

Im running away from socialism,i think.
If there's such a word.

Teacher's day.

My blog song nice right! Hahahaha.

School's okay. Performance,honestly was boring overall. Except for the girl who sang the climb and rate 4/5 for dropbeatheartbeat band. Chilled at canteen,and then heed to sweet home. Was suppose to go to the library with Farihin,but i was tired as i slept late yesterday. So i slept all the way from 2 till buka. :) Makruh,i know. Hehe.

Had Nasi Briyani and shark fin's soup for buka. Soup was not that okay,i dont know why. Not that nice. Revise after buka till 11. Watch my favourite chinese drama till 12 and then got online. Well,one thing. Its suprising I can squeeze to revise 3 subjects for the whole 3 hours. Chem had the shortest time i revise cause i tend to give up when i dont understand. :X

Frustrating can?!
Off. Its saddening that tagboard's getting silent. ):
And my bill's coming alrd. Scaaaaaaaaaaary sia. I wanna reduce texting unneccasary texts.

Dots.

I need a bestfriend more than i need a boyfriend.
Period.

A moment.

Kite flying. Somewhere beautiful. Bestfriend. If i have one.
Loads of pictures.
I wanna do this more than anything.

Why people fall for someone without meeting up?
Why people fall for someone without spending time with each other?
Why people fall for someone just by hearing their voice?
I wonder.

Im not blaming. I know those feelings. Truly.
Ive been in your shoes more than you've ever imagined.
Truly,from th bottom of my heart. Im really sorry. I really am.
I could say sorry continuosly.

I like it this way.
Eventhough i dont really expect my life turning out this way.
Im stuck with myself.

No idea.

Yesterday's.

Yeay,ive finish with He who cant marry. Okay,promise no Korean dramas till o levels end. But not for Korean movies,hehehehehe. But mom told me there's this drama whc jandi from bof acts. And it contains 122 ep -.- Im aiming to watch this after o's. Well,firstttttt. I feel like switching to lj or tumblr. I dont know why but i need a new blog. Heh.

Well this is how i spend today. Woke up at 2pm since i cant get to sleep after sahur. And i find myself cleaning up the dishes and scrubbing the sink. Lol,thats how i find work to do. Im so lazy i rather do something else than to study in the wee morning. Then,i get to sleep after 'organizing' my handphone stuffs. Well,i wanna learn to become someone organize. But step by step,cause im such a messy person. So yeap. Studied ss and maths in the afternoon till buka then brought food since mom's lazy to cook.

After buka,watched Michael Jackson's history live concert. Well,its cool. But i was like freaking confuse with the lady that gets help from the security crew and ran to the stage and hugged Michael Jackson obsessly. Swear my face was like O.O' Hahaha. Then after it ends,got online and finish my K drama. :)

Studying with Nabilah,Hamzah and maybe Ishqal tmr. But Nabilah's coming over to do the resume project with me,whc 4es and 5ns suppose to do. I dont have any idea what is resume. Roflmao. Im off,its alrd almost to 2am now. Bye!

Another stranger.

Friday's short. School was okay except that Farihin was absent from school. And ive been asking Hamzah to meet me before going to school cause for two days straight i saw this big black stray dog loiterring,and im allergic to dogs fyi. Lol no,actually im veeeeery scared of dogs,even the small ones. Recess was terrible,some things happened. And,after school Nabilah accompanied me to gombak to take mom's high bp medicines as she dont have the time to do so. Had physics tuition at 4 then lepak with Nabilah and Hamzah who's lepak-ing all the way under my void when im having tuition. Bought my breakfast food and bubble tea. Accompanied by Hyrul on the phone while im on my way back. Dude,i dont know why i cant call you Khai or Khairul,it seems so different! Hahaha.

Back home,buka-ed aline while watching He who can't marry since mom's overtiming again. Im one episode to finishing. Im shagged. Shagged to do anything tmr. Mom's off day,yeay. Its hard to see her at home in the afternoon nowadays. Off,toodlesxz.

:D : Tell me your identity please? ): IF YOU WANT ME TO PASS MY O'S! Hahahaha.

Sigh.

07's picture.

I miss my past alot well let's be honest.
I teared upon reading my old blogs with old photos.
I want now to be like last 2 years. Everything,as in allllllllllllll.

Friendship, Tasha, Farihin and, someone who cares sincerely.
Yes,i mean it.

Time to get real?

Since my dream was to get in into shatec WITHOUT worrying about my financial,and to become a chef one day..
Deeyan made this for me (: Kindaf cute right. With the pan on her hands all. And a classmate approach saying my dp looks just like me cause of the specs and hair. Hair because if y'all still remember i did post up my primary ezlink photo up here,if im not wrong its at the june archives. Or onwards,hahaha.

Overall i tried to not feel nervous for my english o's oral today. Was doing fine listening to the other crap but when its malek's turn to stand,i felt nervous as ever. Cus malek was 2 seats infront of me. It was okay just that i made a few mistakes. I described the buddhism prayer thing as indian,cause i cant quite see,wth right. Minus marks,confirm,lol. Compared to the other orals,i think i did pretty much okay for this one. Let's just pray hard i'll get good grades. Haha. How i wish i can know my oral results tmr,lol!

So yeah today's cool. I love ss class cause ive always love sabrina yong's lessons from the starting of this year. But anisah didnt came so thats the boring part. Cause i'll always face her and tell her im sleepy whenever i am. Hahaha,no motive. Lol then had maths and english. Same as usual.

Im off,not gona online tonight maybe cause there's ss mock exam tmr. Toodles!

Ignorance is your new bestfriend.

Tuesday's short and sweet. Recess was spend with Nabilah,Zaki and Ishqal. Nabilah and Zaki taught me travel time graph. Don't freak out,i dont even know such basic things. Hahaha,people teaching me confirm got headache cause im slow at understanding things. :x

No remedials so i went back home and continue on my korean drama. Another 5 ep and im stopping korean dramas till o levels,its a promise. Having o levels english oral tmr,im feeling nervous from yesterday. I hate orals,thank god retaking mt is only retaking the papers,not including listening and oral.

And btw i slept for two whole days after school till the next day. Told myself to do my art preps but i didnt. Ahhhhhhh so tiring man! And i didnt do mt revisions. Nvm,i have the whole tuesday next week,cause its a holiday right. :)

I'll post something cute deeyan did for me on the next post! Good luck to everybody for tmr who's taking oral. Do your best,there's no retaking this time!

were meant to say goodbye.

Monday blues. But maybe more to i cant sleep and as far as i know the last time i saw the clock it was 3.35am. I dont know why i cant sleep. Thinking about things? Maybe. Hmm. Okay forget it. I did console mom after sahur,cause i wanna ponteng,but failed. Had lessons as per normal. Im waiting for chem mock test to be out. But it didnt. I know i did badly but i dont want a single digit please. Mt lessons resumed back. Didnt know where to heed during recess so i sat somewhere,and i thought that place got no one. But alotttttt of sec 4 students there. Well,i wanna focus on the maths paper im doing but there were singing and shouting. So yeah,distracted. Some chinese students join the table and it was full and im like the only one alone sitting there with them. o.o

Texted some asking where they are but neh,one didnt reply cause didnt notice,some short replied.Nvm, 45 minutes being alone wont kill. But Nabilah texted me instead,asking where i am and ask me to go to the library. But i was lazy to do so. Or maybe i dont want to. The next thing i know,she and yan came towards me. Was touched when she said some kind of she was worried cause im alone. Haha. Then they help me in maths and left awhile after. I waited till the bell rang and went for my maths class.

I skipped art remedial today cause i dont feel like going. I know dateline's days away. Nevermind,i'll replace it by doing my preps till midnight after i break fast. As usual there's no one at home and im sitting in the dark alone,lol. And,sorry malek for not accompanying you to break fast outside. I ever had the feelings when everybody cant accompany me to grab some food at causeway. So yeap,thats how my day went. Tmrw's tuesday,hope it will turn out better than today.

True friends stays,fake friend goes.

Not referring to stotet,jangan terasa.

Heeeeee.

Nice right the clouds! I was alone then i stop for awhile to take this.

Nabilah: Pooh tunjuk bontot,malu nak amek gambar!

Muke tunggu buka,ahaha.

Muke lepas buka.

Dont blame me,she ask me to do this hahaha!

Si sepet nie,hahaha.

Nabilah took this and we agreed that the mess was rabak

and the cleaners kesian siaaa!

Woke up at 1 pm plus then made plans with Nabilah since she wanna study. So yeah met at 3.30 and heed to the library but it was crowded,so we decided to go rp. But not joining the rest uh,as in Farihin apul all cause they sure make noise one,haha. Spent time studying ss and making notes then at 5.30 went over to the other's spot and they were singing. See,i told you so. Hahaha! Then heed to banquet with Nabilah since Hamzah got smtg on.

Since we reach early,i continued on my ss and Nabilah took pictures. As always,im distracted,hahaha. I took a long time to decide on what to eat. Cause all like jelak alr. Eat then walk around causeway,survey things. Then,went to bazaar to get my ayam percik! :D Lol,then there's this two guys whc stalked us sia,we dont know em! -.- I made alot of belok ways to avoid them sia hahaha. After they gave up,we laugh like what. Lol.

Brought redbull and then lepak around sch's area. Then went back at 9 plus and home-ed!

Im watching "He who cant marry." now. Lol another korean drama,haha. XD

But no worries,i'll still focus on my revisions.

Toodles!

Haah.

Sorry,
i dont wanna be friends with someone two-faced like you.

To an ex.

Okay,since you asked me last three days,im gonna let it out with an open mind. Its like this. I thought i fall for an ex,cause suddenly poof,it made me think that you're everything i want. The same case when i had a crush on you last 2 years but we only lasted for a short while. Sucha waste,i know its been haunting your mind last few months cause karma have been hitting on you,but no. As you know,im over about the you-hurt-me when we broke up part. But,i dont know how and why suddenly the feelings came back. So,i decided to keep this feelings i had and keep on watching. I told this to Farihin,cause this is the last thing i shared with her about.

But,as i watch,i know i shouldnt have cared as a more than a friend thing when you're getting hurt day by day. You're stubborn,and you know it. But as time goes by,i knew i have to forget the past and start anew. What happen right now,ive decided. I dont wanna get back to someone i had histories with,even if i had the choice to do so. Even if im not over that someone. There's two in mind. One,is not my type cause we're world's apart,we're different. And one,you know who you are. So yeah,i think im letting go at last. I know how it feels to have the feelings of hatred to someone when you know you loved them at the same time. I experienced that.

What i wanna say,you're not alone. We're teenagers. Have fun till you drop. You cant turn back when youre older and wishing you're still in your teen's stage. Right? Im beat,at feeling sad. And yeah,i'll look at you differently starting of today. Not an ex,not someone i had feelings for,but just a friend. 2 months and we're going to have our different paths. Only Nabilah plan on staying,on this friendship. Plan on having the same course or school. But thats what we planned,we wont know if we cant get it granted. So yeah,what im trying to say. I dont wanna have myself trap into something called love.

So long,toodles. :)
And psst,i have a follower at last! As in blogger. But i dont know who he is. Lol,a malaysian!
And im made twitter but im not active. Lmao,bye.

2nd update,

I miss this,alot.

Hate tt i could do nothing about it.

Both photobucket and blogger can't upload picture so i'll upload yesterday's photos when blogger gets well. 3 hours more to buka. Not that hungry,im coping up well,ha ha. But im thinking whether im going to the bazaar to grab some snacks to break my fast later on. Im soo lazy.

First day of puasa,everyone's breakfast-ing with their family while im all alone from just now till 9pm later on cause mom's working. ): And this will carry on till tuesday. If only abang could come,that would be great. Its already 4pm and i havent hit the books yet. Gahh,whats happening man. And btw i skipped maths remedial,but its not compulsory actually. Since Anisah text me in the morning saying she couldnt make it,i dont wanna go alone,lol. I cant talk crap with anyone for 3 hours? Thats impossible.

So yeah,i think im going offline after this and study till 6 then go get some food. Or maybe just cook at home. And btw,i had an outrageous dream!But i wont tell anyone,hahahahahahaha. I laughed for a second when i wake up just now.

And my blogskin's back to chilling white. Since there's no nice blogskin available. Im offffff,selamat berbuka. Lol. :D

Audrey cute!

All time favourite among their covers.(Y)

Bleagh.

Maths remedial tmr.
I cant remember when's the last time i go to extra lessons like this during weekends.

And yeah,damn it uh.
Why be so particular about small matters?

Start afresh,forget the old things forget about you.

B4 B4 B4 B4 B4 B4 B4 4B4 B4 B4 B4 B4.
Im still as fucked up as everrrr. I cant believe it,man ):
Signing the paper to retake malay o's again is such a ______. Idk whats the feeling man!Looking at mt papers feels so rimas,i did the letter writing and my malay karat already. Alot who gets b3 didnt retake.

Its 2am now. I slept from 7pm till 1am,dasar snorlax! Heavy sleeper eh? And yeah im so gonna study two times tmr since i didnt do any revision today. Mom nagged at me just now for continuosly reminding me to study without having the initiative to do so. Ugh): I just dont know,im so tireeeed. O level students,best of luck uh,cause i know this is so tiring!

Had geog test after school at 3, whc i done it badly and i swear i couldnt do map reading uh cause i forget everything about it. Then force myself to attend maths remedial after tt,cause it was raining and it will be great if i can hit the bed. But neh,since Feeq's going,i crapped all the way through with her during maths remedial. Crap like hell crap. Went back home,talked with mom and fell alseep. (Y)

Off already,sleeeeeeping. I didnt do maths homework! Lol.
K bye.

Really.

No,I DO NOT have any feelings for anyone or anybody.
Get that up straight to your mind,okay?
I GAVE UP,
on everything related to this.

So gonna flunk tmr's chem and geog mock test paper.
Chem sure die die,geog i didnt studied much.
1.10am now,bye!

Tenenenet.

Me: *jumps,and kneel down. Adik jumpe duit bawah sofa! (Its under the sofa.)
Mum: EH! Tu ibunye uh!
Me: Sudaaah! Brapa posen kat tgn adik?
Mum: Lima posen kan,dah dah bawak sini.
Me: *laughs. One dollar uh eh! So bukan ibunye!
*puts 1 dollar in pocket.

Yes thats how we are,money minded. HAHAHAHA! I had a good laugh thinking about it when im taking in the laundry. Wednesday's fine. Remedials spent with Anisah since Nabeelah gone home because of asthma. And btw -.- I broke down,guess what i get for my malay o's? Im SOOOOO gonne retake!

I GET B4. LET ME REPEAT THAT. B4(!!)
Swear i wont retake if i get B3 sia. Ftw uhhhhhh. Im stll fuck up abt it. Lucky to those who got b3,sooo lucky. Mzee got a2 siaaaaaaaa(!!) Ugh,so jealous. Nvm will work hard! Going to the lib till 9 with ishqal,wont be onlineing again. Having geog and chem mock test tmr,die uh die. Bye readers. (:

Yes,or no?

Stop critisicing people like as if you're that perfect,you know who you are. People dont find you that awesome,anyways. So why? I dont understand people. Hey ,i dont hate you for the fact that we did spent some time together. But please,change for goodness's sake. You're getting from bad to worse. Your mistakes,your bad side. You know it yourself.

Tuesday's awesome. I didnt know N read my blog and said the most touching thing in school just now. I know i have friends,but you know.. friends in that kind of way,i dont have that anymore. Well,there's one but she's attached though. So,i cant possibly be dependant on anyone. I keep relying on people,thats where my mistake lies. Seriously,i know.

And yeah,you're like blaming me. Im sorry if you have this special kind of feelings for me and its my fault,but we've just known each other for awhile. You told me you didnt expected anything from me but why the ignorance,why the sudden attitude? Okay fine,i understand if you're shy,i encounter it the last time too. Being rejected by a crush isnt easy as it seems so. But isnt "Let's know each other more." is better than "Let's just be friends.We can't be more than that."? Think about it. Im facing the harder situation than you. You know what i mean since i did open up to you about this matter.

Not gonna online at night,gonna mug cawan mug cawan after i take a nap.

Just abit.

Woah! Blogger's getting better already but not that 100% cured. Blogger not feeling well,i think. So people,just chill and dont get mad with blogger okay? Nevermind blogger,our friendship 3 years already,and counting! Wohoo! Blogger getting back to normal cause she knows im doing a new livejournal,then she scared i'll leave her aside like www.maya-isyourugliestnightmare.blogspot.com right? Lmao.

Im sleepy but have yet to face the books,and its already 10pm. Nevermind i'll sleep at 12,since tmr's school starting late. I love Tuesdaysssss. (L) Art+ Short lessons whc lasts for only 40mins = (Y) But i hate physics cause i hate Mr Tan Kk,our co-form teacher. Nevermind,endure baby,endure. Aye! Im going off.

You're just abit to make me decide on letting you go.

Where are you now?

Blogger's fucked up. Like seriously,both firefox and explorer's can't get the exact blogger page. And what im seeing now is all unorganized blogger create new post.

And btw. I think Jo and Farihin is the first two whc saw me with my just-wakeup face with my pyjamas,snoopy pulak tu. 0.0 Cause they wanted to take something they left in my house during the party. Like,suddenly at 11am both were outside my house trying to get me through my phone,and i was sleeping on the sofa on that day,hahaha.

Today's fucked up,i think. No art remedial. Wanted to go to the library,thinking of revising but no one volunteered to accompany. Wanted to drink bubble tea cause i havent been drinking it for weeks,but nobody wanna accompany. Fucked up. Do i have a friend?

Im off.

Think about it.

Tears. Mall. Alone. People staring.
Have you experience it?
I did.

I dont understand why people have to make it hard for me,everytime.
What did i do to deserve this? Really.
I think no one can stand being in my place.
Keeping quiet for a long time,for alot of matters.
Everytime the tears urge to drop,you have to hold it back in.

I failed this time round. There's people around.
And dont think im problematic with just one matter.

Pushing me away.

The feelings to get you back whenever i look at you.
Will it stay or will it just fade like always?

It happens everytime.
It happens alot of times.

Picturessssss.

Friday,art room pictures.

Most of it candids caught by adilla.

I dont know why but i like this haha.

I look so small. o.o

Hyrul's keychain and nasi bryani,haha.

Sofea.

To be fair,i'll upload my candid too.

Adilla laughed everytime she looks at this.

Raymond,hahaha.

Grabbed at Ray's facebook. -14th aug.

My face like o.o

Sweared i was like wth after looking at this pic.

Its like only me listening to the game plan. The "GAME."

And the game is this.

Look at the state of the corridor.

Cleaning up,police outside.

Out of all,i love this.