Dissatisfied.

Sometimes i have to hide what im feeling inside.
You'll never understand.

Aku rimas,ugh!

Why are you making things so difficult for me? Im sorry but i dont know why im feeling so not satisfied now. With everything. With everyone. Whatever,but people which im not happy with whc is only i know. Can i like,just run away from everything? I just wanna be alone,thats all. I need to clarify something with someone. But im a coward. Plus,i care what other people and you,thinks about me. I feel like i need someone but i dont want anyone to know. Isnt that ridiculous? Well,maybe i should transfer myself into some mental hosp -_- Well im not having any moodswing or whatever. But i have been keeping quiet for the whole day and i miss abang. I need his entertainments. But he's busy,with his gigs and friends :/ Nevermind,maybe i should learn how to entertain myself starting from now on. And i think i need someone who's not that close to me to listen to my stories so he/she could advice me by looking from the outside,just for the fact that he/she just get to know me and dont have the idea on whats happening. Im blabbering,yes i do. Okay maybe i should forget about this for just awhile and do my housechores,so i could be busy with myself.

Dont text/call me and say why,or saying i could turn to you if i have a problem now,rest assure,i wont reply to this kindaf text anymore.

Mood hilang.

School was as pretty usual. Had alot of fitness during pe,and i was semangat today. Went home,thanks again boyf for accompanying me otp and wasting your prepaid. Met tasha up at 1.30,my area's bustop. Well then,board train heed to douby ghaut and met jaja,aqil and fatheha whc is jaja's friend at middle cabin. So yuuup,we went to plaza sing and ate kfc,while i hear to their stories and crappings. Jaja and aqil had alot to talk about. Then accompanied aqil to buy things for his friends for him to bring home i think,cus he's gg back aussie tmr. He brought 2 ripcurls's slippers and then we went to the arcade. Changed 10bucks,and then we played two games each. Basketball and car game. Cus we wanted to waste time and aqil feel like going to the arcade. Well,guess what. Jaja,fatheha and me,i won third for the car racing game-.- Grr,thats my fav game btw,lol. Thennnn,we slacked at esplanade's rooftop but fatheha had gone home when we slacked. Talked and camwhored for like an hour plus. Aqil's heeding to yishun so me and tasha accompanied him. Jaja went off,hug and bye. Well,nice to meet you babe. :) Like at lasssst for after 6/7 months? I think. Yup,then went to yishun and met aqil's friend amirun (i think) then accomnied him eat at yishun mcds. Gah,i so miss my old workplace! Then,went for a walk to their friend's house but halfway,mom wants me back home so yup,we took bus at the nearest bustop and went off. Salam-ed them and go. Thanks pretty cupcakes,for today. I really had fun.

And this is to you bestf.
*hug. while saying,takecare of yourself,dont drop by fushan cause its late already. im sorry i couldnt send you back home,mom wants me back. she's sick,high bp. thats the reason why i brought that celery before going home.

But you insist on having this behaviour you didnt got to change since the day i knew you. Till i took back what im planning to say to you before we say goodbye. Stop thinking about yourself. I have my problems too,darling. Did you know i ran home,as fast as i could to reach mom and do some celery juice to calm her high blood pressure? Did ykno i was feeling stressed up about you,yourself , about mom and about someth i have to clarify about my feelings? Im off,you know whats best for you. Think wisely.

I love you,mom. I promise i'll do full house chores to make your life more easier starting tmr. I'll try not to dissapoint you in my studies. Please,dont forget. I cared for you,eventho i dont quite show it till you know i ran till i reach home just now cause i was panic and worried about you. Im sorry.

Jaja.

Fatheha,jaja,tasha,me.

Ok hey,i had this thing for you.

Okay hey,my thursday have been great. School was,kanchiong abit cause alot of our classmates didnt do social studies homework,but at last alawden didnt come,afterwhich i had already rush through my recess and ate my laksa quickly. Zangada! And english was -.-" ! I dont know why mr viknesh have been picking up on me. He's always asking me questions. Well,my mind was somewhr else when he suddenly called my name and ask what's food culture. I dont know how my reaction was but whole class waited for like 3 silent minutes for me to answer that f***** qn. Simple question i kno,but my mind was totally blank,i dont know what im thinking about at that point of time. What i know,i wanna stay silent and let mr viknesh to give up on me and continue on with the lesson,but he waited. And whole class was giving me the -.-' cepat lah bodoh answer question tu look.

Well,wtv ah,but mr viknesh ask me to see him after english class. And he told me i did badly for test. 10/50 for freaking english test, cause i got 2/25 for summary of titanic (Y) After that,he called me again he ask "Maya,do you want me to stop asking you questions in class?" I was like "Yes i dont want,cause im afraid." Lol but then i say "Up to you uh." Cause he say i can build up my self confidence in class and whatever lah idk. -__- And he said i look panic and scared.

So yup,sch's over and i went back home with boyf's accompanying me otp as usual. Planned with boyf,3 at last cab woodlands. But we bumped into each other at control stn,lol. So yup,he send me till infront of coffeebean,when ive alrd insist i dont want. But nevermind. Loves *insert gigi rabbit. Haha he asked me to do rabbit face-.- Lol,tunggu eh lama lama. Well then when i came into pantry's door i was like HEEEEEEY! WHO MISS ME?! Hahaha then daisy was like as usual,her kid's actions. She's like a small kid,so manja, came up to me and gave a tightttt long hug. Then workkkkk,and farihin failed her ftq again omg la-.- But nevermind,we're having our breaking of work soon. Next week i think. (Y)

So yup,alot of things happened at work today. Well,i miss akmal,again -.- Lol. And yup,i owed iika a date after i has my payday,its a promise baby. Im offffffff doing 11 page of malay wb-.- Bye!

I feel like having braces,k random.

Look at how crazy my bestf is.

I look exceptionally skinny here.-.-

Tagged by afiq.

1. The person who tagged you:

Afiq periuk.

2. Your relationship with her/him:

Gay partners,for life baby.

3.Your 5 impressions of her/him:

-He's really gay. I mean it.
-He's there for anyone when anyone feels down,good right?
-He's a penguin,ok no link.
-Someone who can take harsh jokes(tak berapa pasti ah)
-Carrrrrrrrrring.

4.The most memorable thing that he/she has done for you:

Texting me asking for my n level results as i didnt expected cause he's the last person i think would ask me. Lol.

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you:

I forgot,but he did gave advices when im down.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on:
Lover? He is already,ehem. Lol. I love everything about you baby.
K stop it sial,hahahahaha.

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:

Punch his face.

8. What is the thing you want to tell him/her now:

Kau gila.

9. Your overall impression of him/her:

Kawan kekek ah. Lol.

10. How do you think the person around you will feel about you:

How i know?

11. The character you love about yourself is:

Hyperness.

12. The character you hate about yourself is:

I get tired of things easily.

13. The most ideal person you want to be:

No one. Lol.

14. For people who cares and likes you, say something to them:

Likes me? Lol,kau buta?

15. Pass this quiz to 10 people to know how they feel about you:(not compulsory)

1.Tashalien.

2.Farihin.

3.Zen.

4.Feeqah.

5.Nabilah.

6.Mussy.

7.Aliah.

8.Mimi.

9.Shahfiq.

10.Iika.

16.Who is No.6 with?

Nope,single. Right? Hahah. Imy though.

17. No.9 male or female?

Male.

18.If No.7 & 1 get together, will it be a good thing?

Dunie terbalik. Kiamat sia aku rasa.

19. What is No.2 studying about?

Coffeebean for life,hahahahaha!

20. When was the last time you chat with No.3?

Im chatting with him now.

21. What kind of music does No.8 like?

Rock-.- Haha he recommended rock songs to me like as if im gonna like it.

22. Does No.10 have siblings?No.3?

Both got.

23.Will you woo No.3?

Im wooing him now. Did i succeed?

24. How about No.7?

Lesbo pe!

25. Is No.4 single?

Yup.

26. What is the surname of No.5?
Aku rase.. Rahim. Kan? Haha. Asal boleh sia,aku lupe sak nab,sorry.

27. What is the hobby of No.1?

Going out with me,tehehehe.

28. Does No.5 & 9 get along well ?

Yup,but not close.

29. Where is No.2 studying at?

846 ,lol.

30. Talk something about No.1.

She's weird when you know her at first but you'll have fun after you know more things about her. Cus she seems so proud when i didnt know her. I anti-ed her once. :p

31. Have you tried developing feelings for No.8?

Last time. Ops.:/
Haha,

.32. Where does No.9 stay?

Bukit ape entah,lupa ah.

33. Are No.1 & 5 best friends?

Classmates.

34. Does No.1 have pets?

No. Plus she's scared of everything,k no.

35. Is No.7 the sexiest person on earth ?

No,i more sexier,hehe.

36. What is No.1 doing now?

She's otw to sleep,not feeling quite well. Get well by tmr darling.

Mistakes after another.

Im currently doing this research about disaster and idk what's nuclear,lmao. (Y) See how stupid i am. I got lots of homework to be completed by tonight. Socialstudies long essay,geography 10 pages of wb,6 mind maps of malay,english research about chernobyl disaster and not forgetting memorising my peribahasa(s). Gah,see how they are pushing us to work hard,you see? And yet,im slacking. Ive gotten a tuition for myself and also tasha bestf. A long lost cousin of mine whc scored 14 for his O's. Not being proud,but im setting him as someone i can look up to,someone i can aim to be. Tuition will be starting after 15 feb,great. Just after my payday. And i wont be working after that till the next holidays. Gah so sad ): So yeap,i didnt expect my chem class test whc is over 10,i got 7. I was like omg? Seriously. I never had understand chemistry in my whole 3 years of learning that sub. I even mistook cher for reading the wrong name. Art teacher asked me to be serious and push myself harder. He guessed i have no mood,or im having any problems with my boyf? Lol nope,just plain lazy. :p Had chemistry practical for the first time handling with chemicals (Y) My partner was alien. Haha we did debated alot cause when i ask to warm,she say dont need. Its like opposite thinking ah. But nevermind,we can improve our partnership skills lol.

Norman: 7? -.- still need me to teach you chem? lol.
Maya: Sweared i expected a 1. I think cher call wrong name,lol.
Norman: Ya la. You expected i got 1 uh. Haha. Now you can teach me already.

Roflol,this is what he text me in class after knowing our class test. (Y) Im offfff,doing this tons of things to do. Im still sleepy when ive slept from 5 till 9pm just now. Haaaaha. Bye!

A day at alien's planet.

Sweetest couple of the year. Hahahaha every year sia kita!

Muke last warning,i know. But whatever. So yup,i woke up at 10am suprisingly and its early,for me. Showered and then do the house chores. Made mom breakfast since im in a good mood. Well,not that in a good mood but whatever. Met tasha up at 1.15pm at cc area and we went off to mcds,to eat and have our homeworks done. Well,some of it only. I realise there's more silence today, cause both of us had problems of our own. But anyway,we went to amk hub after that,thought of getting snow ice,but nope,its close. We shared a 7 bux large pure hazelnut whc we bought at coffeebean. I freaking miss work. If im not having any remedials tmr, im going to work sia with farihin. Almost 2 weeks i didnt work! Ok,and then we walk around amk hub cause tasha's hunting for clothes. Singapore's like half dead,almost 3/4 of the shops are close. (Y) Due due geram sendirii,hahahaa.

Tasha was like "Eh dorang tanak buat business ke?! Aku nak bagi duit, dorang tknk ?" Lol. Went back woodlands and walk around causeway. Was planning to go popular,but its close(Y)! Bumped into feeqah after that and we walk around cwp without any fucking motive. Thought of going home after that but we end up at fushan's and camwhoring. Tasha bought her famous chicken mushroom fusilli at 7 eleven and a big gulp. Org dah lapar gile,die masih kenyang,baik pe! Then camwhore gila babi hutan,till idk whc picture to upload,lol.

Well, last part of the day was my favourite part. We let our problems out. Tasha talks about ___ and i talked about _____. Well, felt lega sikit ah thanks baby. I havent do my 6 piece of art drawings,omg. Im off,watching suami untuk isteriku and do art at the same time.

My mind's a mess.

Muke last warning.

Lol i peep in,ahahah k no.

Muke tak perlu,i know jgn tegur.

Tasha,after taking this pic : Eh lawa bodoh lawa bodoh. Haha -.-

Ahhhhhhhhh.

Tasha's version of up yours.

Ok so,thats a close up of me. Passerby,still wanna say im pretty? Hahahahaha.

To zen: Still wanna by my boyf? Nyeaaaaahahaha.

Babylove.

Random pic, karim being a pervert.
Hahahaha k no.

Im purely mendak and i dont know what to do now. I dont have the feelings to do homework. Its 3.15 am already?! I just know cause i just look at the time,roflol. I wanna take a warmmmm shower but then,im lazy. Nyeh. I'll just do my tons of homeworks with tasha tmr since we're getting things for her sib's birthday. So yup,alot of things to do tmr,i gotta wake up early. Okay how early? I dont know. Btw i ate two table spoon of cough syrup cause i really wanna get well. Mom say im overdosing,lol. Its just two tablespoon. Haha sebenarnye nak bahasa kan zen,pasal die suruh makan obat kan,ah amek kau aku makan two tablespoon,haha. Wtv ah,dah kesedapan.

Im thinking of cutting my hair or not,gah benda gini pun buat stress. Ok,apa mau stress sia, chill ah. I wanna try a short hairstyle but i want long hair at the same time. See,i cant make up my mind about smth as easy as this.

And honey,i dont know why my feeling's this way. Dont think the opposite please. Ive alrd promise to tell you everything,i know. Thats the reason why im being honest in those texts. Imyfm,i really do.
And plus,you lose in that mission we made tgt.

Ku kan setia selalu menunggu!

Lol messy bedroom.

Sorethroat's getting better,i think. Well guess what i did ytd after offing the lappy and while waiting for ajie to come home? I called people randomly. First up was shahfiq,before i off the lappy. Then i call up iika,then zen,then mimi,then haiqal. (Y) Like seriously i was bored. Was deciding to give thaqif a call up too,but he's outside and his batt's weak. So yup,i watch ajie played lappy,and i fell asleep beside him. Well,i eas texting both zen and thaqif at the same time,but i wasnt in my sense,idk what i texted boyf,lol. Cause i deleted all my messages after that,so i couldnt remember what i texted people. Zangada ah maya.

I woke up at 1pm,cause i slept late at 4 in the morning ytd. Steam kodok sia tido! I bath-ed straight cause i got body ache and i need coooold water to freshen me up. Hell yeah, im wasting my time typing this down but nevermind. Ate late breakfast,and then watch tv for awhile. K omg,idk when's the last time i watch tv sia -.- So loooong. Then mom ask me to cook spag for her and bro. I wasnt feeling hungry cause everything i ate tawarrr siao. Perit lah sangat2 tekak nie . Gah, i want my voice back! Then i coooooooook,slept awhile while looking at ajie playing lappy again(Y) For 15 minutes i think. Then woke up,online. Nyeh.

Mimi (Y) I told him i was bored, then was joking when i said "Jumpe aku ah, kul 6 kat intchange." Then he was like "Okay! Aku gi mandi skg. Brb." Then he went offline. Haha baik ah. I dont think he'll come from simei to woodlands just to meet me. Let's see how. But i alrd told mom im going out incase mimi is serious about this. Gah man you. Im off, cleaning up my bedroom and trying to call mimi for the third time -.- Bye!

Holyshit!

Okay,lets talk about today. I slept at 4am ytd and surprisingly i woke up early and that is at 12.30pm. (Y) Cool. I dont know why im this hardworking today but when i woke up,i straight go to the kitchen and started doing house chores by washing the clothes first. Lol, then i clean up bedroom and then dry up everything and yup,etcs. Iron-ed mum's and my clothes,so it will be easier for her to go to work everyday. Blablabla i know i online-ed for 8 hours today. Zangada! Im definetly going to off soon. Cause chat conversations now getting boringgggg,and hell yeah i dont know what im gonna do,its only 10pm. Well maybe i'll just call someone up,and talk till im sleepy. Maybe. Or maybe im going to lie down and dose off, buttttttttttt its only 10pm omg? I dont know to follow the luminiqs and nabilah to east coast anot,im out of cash so i alrd decided to study alone or ask anybody to study along with me. Or anyth that doesnt have to use money. (N) Im hella fucking broke now. Too bad pay day's still a long way to go. Please past by quickly,21 more days. I beg you. Ugh!

Shahfiq ask me out too. Cause long time never meet up-.- Siapa entah that time bhueyyy. Lols,then mimi also planning to go out tmr,then idk ahh im OUT OF CASH lah people. Thanks for understanding,hahaha. Im off, eating medicine and then just text people till i drop dead siaaaaa. Bye.

And thaqif: Welcome, you dont need to thank me for posting your videos at my blog,lol. K go.

Thaqif!

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, im in love with his voice please.Someone find me his msn. Nyeh. Kidding.


But if you think im not kidding,please help meeeeeeeeeee. Haha.

Hidup mendak sialxz.

I seriously lost my voice. I woke up due to the vibration of mom's calling. But when i tried to say hello,nothing came out -.- I was like shouting at mom,but my voice is coarse and soft in volume. Zangada ahhhh,im bored and im not going out today. So yup,i wanna waste minutes of my life doing this unmotive post. Im lazy to bath/eat/eat medicine/study/clean up my house. Gaaaaaah,someone help me! I havent even had anything to eat since i woke up,and its alrd almost to one. Stomach have been calling out for food since 15 minutes ago but i ignored.

Cyber world's getting bored. No tags,might as well dont have tagboard. Comments decreasing,might as well delete friendster. Lol. Okay,i wanna get bath and maybeeeee cook spaghetti for my own. I wanna grow fat please,i wanna have two servings of spaghetti today. That is,if im hardworking enough to cook for myself. If not maggi -.-Im offfffffff,bye.

Aliah ask me to update this.
I miss aliah nadirah so much,haha. Ade orang perasan please. Im just typing just for the sake of typing,muahaha. Kesian pe kene attend org nikah! I no need :P Lol actually i have to go sia,thank god mom's working.

6 days left.

Ive got one mission to do.

Sup, im talking otp while blogging. (Y)

Let's talk about today. School was boring,sleepy,boring and sleepy. Especially during physics. Btw,physics sucks. Had mt and then,went for recess. Yum, ate laksa,favouriteeeee sia. Then went to hall for cny performance. Half good,half bad. Was watching the chinese lion dance. Random tap tasha's shoulders,and say "Imagine eh, the second behind person dont know eh the lion's clothes get off alrd. Then he syiok sendiri,he dance and hop around,like as if he dont know the costume went off alrd,hahaha." Then we laughed alone after that. Lol.

Went home and then slept for like 20minutes. Bathed and get ready,met tasha at 2.45pm. Texted jaja but the meet up's cancelled. Nevermind. Heed off to paragon ,something happened inside the mrt. A girl suddenly approached me when i was laughing,she say her friend ask for number,lol. Only tasha know how he looks like. HAHAHA KIWAK,k diam. Then went to search for toys r us,and buy alooooooot of presents for tasha's two siblings. Baik tasha,salute sia spent 60 plus altgt! Then went to mcd, tasha's treat. I ate mcspicy while she ate dbc. Then went to coffeebean and each gets a small pure chocolate. And yup,went search for things at fareast. Meet fuzz,and then accompany him eat mcd again. Me and tasha bought himalayan tea frappe.

So yup,went woodlands with our fucking BIG toys r us bags,macam borong sia! Then went to tasha's house to put the things and then went out to buy stuffs for tasha's overnight at ecp. Bought over 10 big bags of chips and 10 maggicups,2 cotton of drinks. (Y) Tasha semangat overnight,lol. Then went to lepak till boyf finish soccer training. Lepak maha lepak sia, seriously crap with fuzz all the way. Lol while tasha slept at my back. Boyf came,and we all went to sent tasha home cause there's really alot of things. Then,went home with fuzz and boyf. Woah,got two security guards. Lol, then fuzz parted at overhead bridge and boyf and i slack awhile for around 10minutes and then i went home. Clean up room,bathed and then played laptop. Mimi called for around 45 minutes,well imy budu. Talked about heart matters (: And yup,he hang up cause he's sleepy,well me too.

A mission to do: Not meeting boyf for one week. We're playing a game (: Lets see who lose.
So yup,boyf celebrating cny,tasha going overnight for three days,and farihin went to kl for idk how many days,2 days maybe. And im stuck alone at home. I'll make use of the time till tuesday to complete my homeworks and do revisions,and revisions! Im offfffff,bye.

Alike or no?

I drew this as i was bathing using the warm water and then there's water vapour on the mirror,ok woah detailed!

This girl,seriously cute sia. Random take.

Jemput makan mcspicy!

She say she looks fat,wth!

Pose maha pose (Y)

Muke last minute.

Twister friessssss.

Alien.

Macam org tak reti pakai baju.

Case boredom.

Haha tasha
(Y)