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2009-09-01T08:51:00.000-07:00

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Yup.

2009-08-31T10:28:00.000-07:00

Know what?
I realize i dont really talk to other people except for,
close friends.

Im running away from socialism,i think.
If there's such a word.

Teacher's day.

2009-08-31T09:58:00.000-07:00

My blog song nice right! Hahahaha.

School's okay. Performance,honestly was boring overall. Except for the girl who sang the climb and rate 4/5 for dropbeatheartbeat band. Chilled at canteen,and then heed to sweet home. Was suppose to go to the library with Farihin,but i was tired as i slept late yesterday. So i slept all the way from 2 till buka. :) Makruh,i know. Hehe.

Had Nasi Briyani and shark fin's soup for buka. Soup was not that okay,i dont know why. Not that nice. Revise after buka till 11. Watch my favourite chinese drama till 12 and then got online. Well,one thing. Its suprising I can squeeze to revise 3 subjects for the whole 3 hours. Chem had the shortest time i revise cause i tend to give up when i dont understand. :X

Frustrating can?!
Off. Its saddening that tagboard's getting silent. ):
And my bill's coming alrd. Scaaaaaaaaaaary sia. I wanna reduce texting unneccasary texts.

Dots.

2009-08-30T08:56:00.000-07:00

I need a bestfriend more than i need a boyfriend.
Period.

A moment.

2009-08-29T23:17:00.000-07:00

Kite flying. Somewhere beautiful. Bestfriend. If i have one.
Loads of pictures.
I wanna do this more than anything.

Why people fall for someone without meeting up?
Why people fall for someone without spending time with each other?
Why people fall for someone just by hearing their voice?
I wonder.

Im not blaming. I know those feelings. Truly.
Ive been in your shoes more than you've ever imagined.
Truly,from th bottom of my heart. Im really sorry. I really am.
I could say sorry continuosly.

I like it this way.
Eventhough i dont really expect my life turning out this way.
Im stuck with myself.

No idea.

2009-08-29T10:16:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's.

Yeay,ive finish with He who cant marry. Okay,promise no Korean dramas till o levels end. But not for Korean movies,hehehehehe. But mom told me there's this drama whc jandi from bof acts. And it contains 122 ep -.- Im aiming to watch this after o's. Well,firstttttt. I feel like switching to lj or tumblr. I dont know why but i need a new blog. Heh.

Well this is how i spend today. Woke up at 2pm since i cant get to sleep after sahur. And i find myself cleaning up the dishes and scrubbing the sink. Lol,thats how i find work to do. Im so lazy i rather do something else than to study in the wee morning. Then,i get to sleep after 'organizing' my handphone stuffs. Well,i wanna learn to become someone organize. But step by step,cause im such a messy person. So yeap. Studied ss and maths in the afternoon till buka then brought food since mom's lazy to cook.

After buka,watched Michael Jackson's history live concert. Well,its cool. But i was like freaking confuse with the lady that gets help from the security crew and ran to the stage and hugged Michael Jackson obsessly. Swear my face was like O.O' Hahaha. Then after it ends,got online and finish my K drama. :)

Studying with Nabilah,Hamzah and maybe Ishqal tmr. But Nabilah's coming over to do the resume project with me,whc 4es and 5ns suppose to do. I dont have any idea what is resume. Roflmao. Im off,its alrd almost to 2am now. Bye!

Another stranger.

2009-08-28T08:58:00.000-07:00

Friday's short. School was okay except that Farihin was absent from school. And ive been asking Hamzah to meet me before going to school cause for two days straight i saw this big black stray dog loiterring,and im allergic to dogs fyi. Lol no,actually im veeeeery scared of dogs,even the small ones. Recess was terrible,some things happened. And,after school Nabilah accompanied me to gombak to take mom's high bp medicines as she dont have the time to do so. Had physics tuition at 4 then lepak with Nabilah and Hamzah who's lepak-ing all the way under my void when im having tuition. Bought my breakfast food and bubble tea. Accompanied by Hyrul on the phone while im on my way back. Dude,i dont know why i cant call you Khai or Khairul,it seems so different! Hahaha.

Back home,buka-ed aline while watching He who can't marry since mom's overtiming again. Im one episode to finishing. Im shagged. Shagged to do anything tmr. Mom's off day,yeay. Its hard to see her at home in the afternoon nowadays. Off,toodlesxz.

:D : Tell me your identity please? ): IF YOU WANT ME TO PASS MY O'S! Hahahaha.

Sigh.

2009-08-27T03:34:00.000-07:00

07's picture.

I miss my past alot well let's be honest.
I teared upon reading my old blogs with old photos.
I want now to be like last 2 years. Everything,as in allllllllllllll.

Friendship, Tasha, Farihin and, someone who cares sincerely.
Yes,i mean it.

Time to get real?

2009-08-26T02:10:00.000-07:00

Since my dream was to get in into shatec WITHOUT worrying about my financial,and to become a chef one day..
Deeyan made this for me (: Kindaf cute right. With the pan on her hands all. And a classmate approach saying my dp looks just like me cause of the specs and hair. Hair because if y'all still remember i did post up my primary ezlink photo up here,if im not wrong its at the june archives. Or onwards,hahaha.

Overall i tried to not feel nervous for my english o's oral today. Was doing fine listening to the other crap but when its malek's turn to stand,i felt nervous as ever. Cus malek was 2 seats infront of me. It was okay just that i made a few mistakes. I described the buddhism prayer thing as indian,cause i cant quite see,wth right. Minus marks,confirm,lol. Compared to the other orals,i think i did pretty much okay for this one. Let's just pray hard i'll get good grades. Haha. How i wish i can know my oral results tmr,lol!

So yeah today's cool. I love ss class cause ive always love sabrina yong's lessons from the starting of this year. But anisah didnt came so thats the boring part. Cause i'll always face her and tell her im sleepy whenever i am. Hahaha,no motive. Lol then had maths and english. Same as usual.

Im off,not gona online tonight maybe cause there's ss mock exam tmr. Toodles!

Ignorance is your new bestfriend.

2009-08-25T04:03:00.000-07:00

Tuesday's short and sweet. Recess was spend with Nabilah,Zaki and Ishqal. Nabilah and Zaki taught me travel time graph. Don't freak out,i dont even know such basic things. Hahaha,people teaching me confirm got headache cause im slow at understanding things. :x

No remedials so i went back home and continue on my korean drama. Another 5 ep and im stopping korean dramas till o levels,its a promise. Having o levels english oral tmr,im feeling nervous from yesterday. I hate orals,thank god retaking mt is only retaking the papers,not including listening and oral.

And btw i slept for two whole days after school till the next day. Told myself to do my art preps but i didnt. Ahhhhhhh so tiring man! And i didnt do mt revisions. Nvm,i have the whole tuesday next week,cause its a holiday right. :)

I'll post something cute deeyan did for me on the next post! Good luck to everybody for tmr who's taking oral. Do your best,there's no retaking this time!

were meant to say goodbye.

2009-08-24T03:01:00.000-07:00

Monday blues. But maybe more to i cant sleep and as far as i know the last time i saw the clock it was 3.35am. I dont know why i cant sleep. Thinking about things? Maybe. Hmm. Okay forget it. I did console mom after sahur,cause i wanna ponteng,but failed. Had lessons as per normal. Im waiting for chem mock test to be out. But it didnt. I know i did badly but i dont want a single digit please. Mt lessons resumed back. Didnt know where to heed during recess so i sat somewhere,and i thought that place got no one. But alotttttt of sec 4 students there. Well,i wanna focus on the maths paper im doing but there were singing and shouting. So yeah,distracted. Some chinese students join the table and it was full and im like the only one alone sitting there with them. o.o

Texted some asking where they are but neh,one didnt reply cause didnt notice,some short replied.Nvm, 45 minutes being alone wont kill. But Nabilah texted me instead,asking where i am and ask me to go to the library. But i was lazy to do so. Or maybe i dont want to. The next thing i know,she and yan came towards me. Was touched when she said some kind of she was worried cause im alone. Haha. Then they help me in maths and left awhile after. I waited till the bell rang and went for my maths class.

I skipped art remedial today cause i dont feel like going. I know dateline's days away. Nevermind,i'll replace it by doing my preps till midnight after i break fast. As usual there's no one at home and im sitting in the dark alone,lol. And,sorry malek for not accompanying you to break fast outside. I ever had the feelings when everybody cant accompany me to grab some food at causeway. So yeap,thats how my day went. Tmrw's tuesday,hope it will turn out better than today.

True friends stays,fake friend goes.

Not referring to stotet,jangan terasa.

Heeeeee.

2009-08-23T08:34:00.000-07:00

Nice right the clouds! I was alone then i stop for awhile to take this.

Nabilah: Pooh tunjuk bontot,malu nak amek gambar!

Muke tunggu buka,ahaha.

Muke lepas buka.

Dont blame me,she ask me to do this hahaha!

Si sepet nie,hahaha.

Nabilah took this and we agreed that the mess was rabak

and the cleaners kesian siaaa!

Woke up at 1 pm plus then made plans with Nabilah since she wanna study. So yeah met at 3.30 and heed to the library but it was crowded,so we decided to go rp. But not joining the rest uh,as in Farihin apul all cause they sure make noise one,haha. Spent time studying ss and making notes then at 5.30 went over to the other's spot and they were singing. See,i told you so. Hahaha! Then heed to banquet with Nabilah since Hamzah got smtg on.

Since we reach early,i continued on my ss and Nabilah took pictures. As always,im distracted,hahaha. I took a long time to decide on what to eat. Cause all like jelak alr. Eat then walk around causeway,survey things. Then,went to bazaar to get my ayam percik! :D Lol,then there's this two guys whc stalked us sia,we dont know em! -.- I made alot of belok ways to avoid them sia hahaha. After they gave up,we laugh like what. Lol.

Brought redbull and then lepak around sch's area. Then went back at 9 plus and home-ed!

Im watching "He who cant marry." now. Lol another korean drama,haha. XD

But no worries,i'll still focus on my revisions.

Toodles!

Haah.

2009-08-22T23:50:00.001-07:00

Sorry,
i dont wanna be friends with someone two-faced like you.

To an ex.

2009-08-22T10:09:00.000-07:00

Okay,since you asked me last three days,im gonna let it out with an open mind. Its like this. I thought i fall for an ex,cause suddenly poof,it made me think that you're everything i want. The same case when i had a crush on you last 2 years but we only lasted for a short while. Sucha waste,i know its been haunting your mind last few months cause karma have been hitting on you,but no. As you know,im over about the you-hurt-me when we broke up part. But,i dont know how and why suddenly the feelings came back. So,i decided to keep this feelings i had and keep on watching. I told this to Farihin,cause this is the last thing i shared with her about.

But,as i watch,i know i shouldnt have cared as a more than a friend thing when you're getting hurt day by day. You're stubborn,and you know it. But as time goes by,i knew i have to forget the past and start anew. What happen right now,ive decided. I dont wanna get back to someone i had histories with,even if i had the choice to do so. Even if im not over that someone. There's two in mind. One,is not my type cause we're world's apart,we're different. And one,you know who you are. So yeah,i think im letting go at last. I know how it feels to have the feelings of hatred to someone when you know you loved them at the same time. I experienced that.

What i wanna say,you're not alone. We're teenagers. Have fun till you drop. You cant turn back when youre older and wishing you're still in your teen's stage. Right? Im beat,at feeling sad. And yeah,i'll look at you differently starting of today. Not an ex,not someone i had feelings for,but just a friend. 2 months and we're going to have our different paths. Only Nabilah plan on staying,on this friendship. Plan on having the same course or school. But thats what we planned,we wont know if we cant get it granted. So yeah,what im trying to say. I dont wanna have myself trap into something called love.

So long,toodles. :)
And psst,i have a follower at last! As in blogger. But i dont know who he is. Lol,a malaysian!
And im made twitter but im not active. Lmao,bye.

2nd update,

2009-08-22T01:39:00.000-07:00

I miss this,alot.

Hate tt i could do nothing about it.

2009-08-22T00:41:00.000-07:00

Both photobucket and blogger can't upload picture so i'll upload yesterday's photos when blogger gets well. 3 hours more to buka. Not that hungry,im coping up well,ha ha. But im thinking whether im going to the bazaar to grab some snacks to break my fast later on. Im soo lazy.

First day of puasa,everyone's breakfast-ing with their family while im all alone from just now till 9pm later on cause mom's working. ): And this will carry on till tuesday. If only abang could come,that would be great. Its already 4pm and i havent hit the books yet. Gahh,whats happening man. And btw i skipped maths remedial,but its not compulsory actually. Since Anisah text me in the morning saying she couldnt make it,i dont wanna go alone,lol. I cant talk crap with anyone for 3 hours? Thats impossible.

So yeah,i think im going offline after this and study till 6 then go get some food. Or maybe just cook at home. And btw,i had an outrageous dream!But i wont tell anyone,hahahahahahaha. I laughed for a second when i wake up just now.

And my blogskin's back to chilling white. Since there's no nice blogskin available. Im offffff,selamat berbuka. Lol. :D

Audrey cute!

2009-08-21T10:10:00.000-07:00

All time favourite among their covers.(Y)

Bleagh.

2009-08-21T03:02:00.000-07:00

Maths remedial tmr.
I cant remember when's the last time i go to extra lessons like this during weekends.

And yeah,damn it uh.
Why be so particular about small matters?

Start afresh,forget the old things forget about you.

2009-08-20T10:40:00.000-07:00

B4 B4 B4 B4 B4 B4 B4 4B4 B4 B4 B4 B4.
Im still as fucked up as everrrr. I cant believe it,man ):
Signing the paper to retake malay o's again is such a ______. Idk whats the feeling man!Looking at mt papers feels so rimas,i did the letter writing and my malay karat already. Alot who gets b3 didnt retake.

Its 2am now. I slept from 7pm till 1am,dasar snorlax! Heavy sleeper eh? And yeah im so gonna study two times tmr since i didnt do any revision today. Mom nagged at me just now for continuosly reminding me to study without having the initiative to do so. Ugh): I just dont know,im so tireeeed. O level students,best of luck uh,cause i know this is so tiring!

Had geog test after school at 3, whc i done it badly and i swear i couldnt do map reading uh cause i forget everything about it. Then force myself to attend maths remedial after tt,cause it was raining and it will be great if i can hit the bed. But neh,since Feeq's going,i crapped all the way through with her during maths remedial. Crap like hell crap. Went back home,talked with mom and fell alseep. (Y)

Off already,sleeeeeeping. I didnt do maths homework! Lol.
K bye.

Really.

2009-08-19T10:04:00.000-07:00

No,I DO NOT have any feelings for anyone or anybody.
Get that up straight to your mind,okay?
I GAVE UP,
on everything related to this.

So gonna flunk tmr's chem and geog mock test paper.
Chem sure die die,geog i didnt studied much.
1.10am now,bye!

Tenenenet.

2009-08-19T03:14:00.000-07:00

Me: *jumps,and kneel down. Adik jumpe duit bawah sofa! (Its under the sofa.)
Mum: EH! Tu ibunye uh!
Me: Sudaaah! Brapa posen kat tgn adik?
Mum: Lima posen kan,dah dah bawak sini.
Me: *laughs. One dollar uh eh! So bukan ibunye!
*puts 1 dollar in pocket.

Yes thats how we are,money minded. HAHAHAHA! I had a good laugh thinking about it when im taking in the laundry. Wednesday's fine. Remedials spent with Anisah since Nabeelah gone home because of asthma. And btw -.- I broke down,guess what i get for my malay o's? Im SOOOOO gonne retake!

I GET B4. LET ME REPEAT THAT. B4(!!)
Swear i wont retake if i get B3 sia. Ftw uhhhhhh. Im stll fuck up abt it. Lucky to those who got b3,sooo lucky. Mzee got a2 siaaaaaaaa(!!) Ugh,so jealous. Nvm will work hard! Going to the lib till 9 with ishqal,wont be onlineing again. Having geog and chem mock test tmr,die uh die. Bye readers. (:

Yes,or no?

2009-08-18T02:53:00.000-07:00

Stop critisicing people like as if you're that perfect,you know who you are. People dont find you that awesome,anyways. So why? I dont understand people. Hey ,i dont hate you for the fact that we did spent some time together. But please,change for goodness's sake. You're getting from bad to worse. Your mistakes,your bad side. You know it yourself.

Tuesday's awesome. I didnt know N read my blog and said the most touching thing in school just now. I know i have friends,but you know.. friends in that kind of way,i dont have that anymore. Well,there's one but she's attached though. So,i cant possibly be dependant on anyone. I keep relying on people,thats where my mistake lies. Seriously,i know.

And yeah,you're like blaming me. Im sorry if you have this special kind of feelings for me and its my fault,but we've just known each other for awhile. You told me you didnt expected anything from me but why the ignorance,why the sudden attitude? Okay fine,i understand if you're shy,i encounter it the last time too. Being rejected by a crush isnt easy as it seems so. But isnt "Let's know each other more." is better than "Let's just be friends.We can't be more than that."? Think about it. Im facing the harder situation than you. You know what i mean since i did open up to you about this matter.

Not gonna online at night,gonna mug cawan mug cawan after i take a nap.

Just abit.

2009-08-17T06:56:00.000-07:00

Woah! Blogger's getting better already but not that 100% cured. Blogger not feeling well,i think. So people,just chill and dont get mad with blogger okay? Nevermind blogger,our friendship 3 years already,and counting! Wohoo! Blogger getting back to normal cause she knows im doing a new livejournal,then she scared i'll leave her aside like www.maya-isyourugliestnightmare.blogspot.com right? Lmao.

Im sleepy but have yet to face the books,and its already 10pm. Nevermind i'll sleep at 12,since tmr's school starting late. I love Tuesdaysssss. (L) Art+ Short lessons whc lasts for only 40mins = (Y) But i hate physics cause i hate Mr Tan Kk,our co-form teacher. Nevermind,endure baby,endure. Aye! Im going off.

You're just abit to make me decide on letting you go.

Where are you now?

2009-08-17T01:55:00.000-07:00

Blogger's fucked up. Like seriously,both firefox and explorer's can't get the exact blogger page. And what im seeing now is all unorganized blogger create new post.

And btw. I think Jo and Farihin is the first two whc saw me with my just-wakeup face with my pyjamas,snoopy pulak tu. 0.0 Cause they wanted to take something they left in my house during the party. Like,suddenly at 11am both were outside my house trying to get me through my phone,and i was sleeping on the sofa on that day,hahaha.

Today's fucked up,i think. No art remedial. Wanted to go to the library,thinking of revising but no one volunteered to accompany. Wanted to drink bubble tea cause i havent been drinking it for weeks,but nobody wanna accompany. Fucked up. Do i have a friend?

Im off.

Think about it.

2009-08-15T21:37:00.000-07:00

Tears. Mall. Alone. People staring.
Have you experience it?
I did.

I dont understand why people have to make it hard for me,everytime.
What did i do to deserve this? Really.
I think no one can stand being in my place.
Keeping quiet for a long time,for alot of matters.
Everytime the tears urge to drop,you have to hold it back in.

I failed this time round. There's people around.
And dont think im problematic with just one matter.

Pushing me away.

2009-08-15T07:10:00.000-07:00

The feelings to get you back whenever i look at you.
Will it stay or will it just fade like always?

It happens everytime.
It happens alot of times.

Picturessssss.

2009-08-15T05:57:00.000-07:00

Friday,art room pictures.

Most of it candids caught by adilla.

I dont know why but i like this haha.

I look so small. o.o

Hyrul's keychain and nasi bryani,haha.

Sofea.

To be fair,i'll upload my candid too.

Adilla laughed everytime she looks at this.

Raymond,hahaha.

Grabbed at Ray's facebook. -14th aug.

My face like o.o

Sweared i was like wth after looking at this pic.

Its like only me listening to the game plan. The "GAME."

And the game is this.

Look at the state of the corridor.

Cleaning up,police outside.

Out of all,i love this.

17th.

2009-08-15T00:54:00.000-07:00

17th birthday. (Those who did attend,idc go read everything here!)
Pictures havent being uploaded yet by Raymond. Will update the pictures on the next post.
So yeah,when i think my 17th isnt anything,cause i dont really care about being 17th but i care when 18 comes. Cause i wna get my licence,lessons and everything done.

Art was super tired. When 4pm strikes,the boys started packing up and kept on talking about going to the movies,watching G.I JOE. I think they purposely make their talkings about the movie loudly,so that i could hear about their plans. What's weird is that however symphatetic and pathetic i put a sad and tired face to Mr jay lim saying that i wanna go home,he didnt let me. So yeah,i continue with my painting,im almost done i think. Another 2 more days,then im done with art canvas,left with preps.

So yeah Nabilah texted me to meet her up cause she wanted to use my lappy. Met her outside school and send Atika off at the bustop. Lepak awhile since Nabilah has a "problem" about someone liking her boyfriend. So yeah i keep on listening eventho my mood was just to go home and lie down,flat as i was uber tired.(When the fact that she lied about having a problem to delay time.) So then,we went to my house,and once i open my house door's,i remembered the first person i saw was adi(cause of his white specs i think hahaha). And they were in the dark,shouting happy birthday. The next thing i knew i close my door back cause i was shy and shock -.- Sorry about that guys,haha. Blew candles,eat pizza,munchy doughnuts and marshmallow with marshmallow with chocolates. They ask me to join the guessing game outside the house. So yeah i did,after a few of gertaks by jo "Maya,kalau kau tknk keluar aku tknk bobal ngn kau." Cause im 100% confirm they will sabo.

So yeah the rule of the game was,there was a lot of papers,if one of us gets the paper with a dot in it,we can throw slippers on him/her. The game started and i cheated cause i was finding the paper without dot. The next thing i knew,flour are thrown at me. That part kan -.- Ape lagi! Join uh,hahaha. (When the fact that there's no dot on every paper.) -.- And guess what,when i was running away from them by going to th 6th floor,police came and ask me to go down back. Haha yadayada,we have to clean up the place. Cause one of my neighbours lodge a complaint about us being noisy i think -.- Then chatted inside the house when the police went off alr,and then went to hardcourt to watch the guys play touch rugby,send dee off at the mrt and then went home. Thanks to dee for the big squirrel. I wanna name her squirrie,idk why-.- Haha,i slept with her ytd,lol. Thanks to afiq fiqsion for the box full of sweets,stars,chocolates,and small bears. Thanks to Hamzah for the perfume,wallet and cleanser. Thanks to apul for the birthday kiss. Thanks to feeqah for the big card decorated by you,pink is always a must eh? :)

So yeah thats it for my 17th. But i did suspected things.
1. I check Farihin's wallet on thursday and there was approximately 60-70bucks. She WONT bring that money so much to school,the most is 50.

2. Nabilah say Yan wants to meet Farihin at dnt workshop after recess,pay money cause he owed her money. BUT i was pretty sure yan have never owed Farihin any money!

3. When i was talking to mom about hot topiccccs,sharing secrets,then abang called. The next thing i knew mom secretly went to the kitchen and talks very softly. When i ask who was it,she say its her friend. Then i say "I thought abang?" Then she say ohyah first was abang,next was my friend. Another suspect,she CANT lie. Haahaha!

4. When im outside the house,i realise the table outside was missing. Mom's lazy,she wont bring the table inside. So another suspect. Hahaha.

There goes my 17th. Thanks alot and here's a post reply to Feeqah.

Yes its a memorable birthday for me,so its a success. My 16th and 17th i rated it 10/10. Just that my 16th is abit more interesting cause i got my date back then,and he's the one who help me out in cutting the cake when i was trembling,and the fact that i dont know anything about the surprise birthday party. But this one,i did suspected things right? Haha,yeah i know we've push the old times aside. And you know im here for you anytime right.

Thanks to this peoples.
Farihin, Syafiq, Ajie, Mus, Nabilah, Yan, Malek, Feeqah, Jo, Apul, Zaki, Hamzah,Dee, Mus, Adi, Raymond, Ishqal,Rozaime. Thats all right? Sorry if i left out anyone as im blank right now. Its so memorable cause watching the others mopping the corridor with teamwork(haha) is fun,lol! First time in life,hahaha.

Will update pictures soon.

move in a little closer.

2009-08-13T06:48:00.000-07:00

Last week's.

Keywords: *Chem sucks.

Lol i cant get it what i was revising and then i got bored.

Peisi shiok sendiri,hahaha.

Jo's spec lol i look like -.-

Have to draw this on the big canvas. I know,easy,lol.

But need to do smtg different.

I got 2 big birthday cards from malek,jo co. Thanks haha.

So here are the random pictures,from last week and the past two days in art room. We had three straight days from 8am to 5pm doing art. Good that i didnt feel sleep. But we got tired of drawing and colouring so we kill boredom by having crazy photoshots.

So yeah,thats all for the past two days,and thanks to the people(ssssss) who wished me after midnight ytd. Thru texts,late night calls,facebook and at school. So yeah thanks alot eventho my 17th is nothing,and thanks Hyrul for the pooh bear and pooh keychain. ^^ Thanks for being the only one who gave me my birthday present today and thanks Fad for being the only one who did a post on my birthday. Thanks to nabilah,apul and jo for the birthday hug.

One thing about this year's.

The one i expected to wish me made only a "Happy birthday" text while the other random friends did a long wish and some wishes and good luck for my o's to me. And thanks for the ones who did remembered eventho we lost contact. So yeah,thats all about it. End of 17th. Mom's getting me a new phone,believe it anot i sulk alot and ask mom aloot of times "Ibu,nak handphoneeeeeeee." The sad face and pathetic one is a must,hahahahaha!

Actually im pissed now. Seriously.

out of all days,you have to make this kind of attitude just today. thanks for ruining everything i guess? hah,should've never approach you and share things. i know you dnt even care right like how you did the last time? so much for the im always here for you? ok good. do whatever you want.

Down.

2009-08-11T00:21:00.000-07:00

Will be away till weekends.

I need to do this,i need to push myself and revise. Art prepworks and canvas's deadline are next week,and i havent even start on my painting.Will be stuck in school till 5 for the next 3 or 4 days this week to finish off everything. Be shock. Im only at the 2nd board and we have to do 8 boards altgt. So see how i need to rush everything?

Mt o level results tmr,or latest by thursday. Hopefully its tomorrow. Please i dont want to ruin my own birthday. I did pretty badly on mt.
A2 for N level,and i assume i'll get b4 or worst C5 this time round.

I need to work my ass off and read chemistry from the beginning and try to understand at least abit. And i thought im the only one who's worried for chem. Well,physics too. But at least physics is logical. Chem no,not logical at all. :

Thanks alot for the advance birthday wish. That shows you still rmb my birthday. But neh,im just expecting a new phone from mom. As im aiming for e63 but 2.0 megapix siol -.- Current phone more better. But whatever i just wanna say goodbye to w760i and hello new phone. But I need to console mom about this,hopefully i succeed,amen. o.o

And i find myself bothering about such things when i know people dont rly bother about it. How tha fuck am i to get this sort out?

_|_

2009-08-10T05:41:00.000-07:00

"Will you shut the fuck up and hear me out? Just once will be enough for me."

Basketball match,draw between girls and guys. Rested at Nabilah's crib. Went to my crib,cook spaghetti for them,then watch drag me to hell. They played poker card(?) while i slept. Causeway and then home.

Pardon my mood swings or if i suddenly get mad without any reasons.

Fuck menses. Fuck cramps.

Today is freaking random. No fireworks,no nothing.

2009-08-09T11:15:00.000-07:00

Don't mind March's photo,im using the computer now. Lappy's on mom's hands,she's watching korean movie again. Well,guess what? She was on the lappy from 11pm till the next day of 10am. Hahaha,cause she wasnt working. Like wth right,almost to 12 hours(!!)

So yeah,National Day this year is so boring. Woke up at 11,texted Hyrul a happy birtday wish. Was suppose to sleep back but cant so i switch on the lappy secretly. Slept till 6pm since im broke and i dont like to go out when im broke,i cant survive,haha. Me and my stomach. -.-

So yeah,got up at 6,and mom offered me pocket money. Texted Nabilah and she was with the others playing bowling. Got ready and met em at yishun at 7. They were playing timezone. -.- Random sia national day play timezone! Alot pulak tu no lifers,like us hahaha. Was not satisfied as i got 2nd for car racing,ahaha. Then went to ljs and then to cash converters. (Trust me,today is the most random day of my life.) Then went to lepak at adm playground,so long never play playground and fitness corner lol. Lepak till 11 and then walk home with Hamzah. Asked hyrul to call up and we talked till 12,drag for so long.

Ishqal's birthday dedication post will be up tmr. And randomly,playing basketball with Nabilah,Hamzah and whoever wanna tag along in the morning tmr. Haha!

Here's another Sarah b's Originals. Ive subscribe to her alr. ^^
She did amazing originals. And yeah you'll see more of her here.

Hello-Sarah B.
There was a guy who I saw almost everyday
Sat right next to me and started to read
Surprised, I was mesmerized by his ways
Couldn't help myself, I started to lead him
Right into my eyes..
Right into my smile..

Chrous:
Hello.. there to you
Hello.. there to you

Wanted to talk to you for the longest time
But courage is so hard to find these days
Should I be myself, oh I'll be fine
I'll say it quick, can't let you slip away
From my life..
From my heart..

Chorus
In front of me as we laughed
Never thought this day would come
From then on,
You washed my fears away

Hyrulism.

2009-08-08T21:15:00.000-07:00

Happy 15th birthday to you.

Im gonna cut it short. Due to what we chatted about just now,just take it as the whole Singapore is celebrating your birthday! Look at it in a positive way. Haha. Sadly,my mum told me if not my birthday would be today too,cause im pre-mature and i came out earlier than expected so actually she can choose a birth date herself. But neh,unluckily. If not,i'll watch the fireworks and that will be my present for every year,ha ha.

So yeah. I know we've been quarelling alot for certain small matters. But i'll never forget how you help me in a way that when i didnt have anyone to turn to when im down and you were there all along. Trying to make me feel better and faced everything in a positive way. Thanks again. Enjoy your 15th,dude.

Ive got new songs to hearr!

2009-08-08T01:41:00.000-07:00

Dropbeatheartbeat.

Click it! I visited here and am stuck on "Not red roses." eventho its just a rough version.

Evg students sure got talent,right?It's their ori's btw. Cute lyrics.

Go go hear,and support! :)

Another ori one.

Do you still talk to the one that broke your heart?Too many questions (like this) are surrounding my thoughtsForget about her and look at me,I'm so much better but tell me what do you see?
Chorus:What do you think about me?Am I too short? Too fat? Even skinny for your liking?Do I run like a dork or speak real slow?But one thing I have to knowWould you ever let me go...?Who do you think of the most everyday?The tone in your voice says there's no one that wayFollow me, I'll make you love again but can I be more than... your best friend?

Chorus- Interlude -Erase her from your mindSo many other fish in the seaShe's not worth your timeI hope that other fish is meDo I make the first move?Or am I too nerdy? Too flirty?How do I get closer to you?But tell me, what do you see...
What do you think about me?Am I too young? Too old? Too childish for your liking?Do I boss you around or do I play too much?But one thing's for sure...What do you think about me?Am I too nice? Too sweet? Too pretty for your personality?Do I shine like gold or haven't you noticedI'm right here in front of you and I'll never let you go...
How this song describes my situation now,ha ha.

officially missing you cover,great one!I think im stuck on originals. :)

True.

2009-08-07T09:13:00.000-07:00

Its already past to 12 mid and ive been on the lappy since 7pm. Wth maya,so much for

'I wanna practice on my co-ordinate geometry'. Ugh.

School,all wore red today. PE,played netball and then badminton with Nabilah. So rarely im this active during pe. I'll always pretend to take the racket but just sit and laze around. Then had geog test whc i didnt really studied. So yeah,its a 100% i'll not pass. Then had something on,yadayada. Case closed,and then went back to class and talk crap till 10.45am.

Went to 888 and had kfc with Nabilah,Yan,Hamzah and Mzee. I finished my bandito(Y) The rest was waiting for me to finish my food all the time. Lol. Yan put a bet on me every recess time whether i finish my food anot. Hahaha. Damn it. I dont seem to eat alot nowadays. Then went back home with Nabilah since she wants to use the lappy and then met the others again,including rozaime. Went for bubble teas,and then i rush home for maths tuition at 5pm.

No plans tomorrow,just trading with some blogshopper,i think.

Im off.

I watched 'Orphans' online,recommended by Farihin Thanks to her my heart almost fell out o.o. Suspen 10/10 (Y) Go watch it. Not a ghost story tho,just a suspen one.
Go watch!

Frustrated.

2009-08-05T05:46:00.000-07:00

Mind today post's pictures. See how i entertained myself when i feel dejected. Maybe its karma,what goes around comes around. But i dont feel much affected,just a little. Im more to frustrated than sad. Its okay. "Kau tak leh treat die mcm normal,kau kene treat die mcm typical sec 3 guys." Nabilah told me that and i think at last im gonna accept it that way then. ): Thank god mom just called to say that she's bring back nachos with cheese after she finish working. That cheers me up,eventhough both school and home doesnt seem to be a good place nowadays. And i can only depend on diary to tell all these too.

Lessons as usual. Physics and Chem practical. Was suppose to skip chemistry but neh,last minute come. Today's practical was tough. Everything ended at 5.50 almost to 6pm. Planned to lepak,but found out that Nabilah's wallet was missing. We talked till 7 and all went seperate ways. And did i ever tell you August is a so shitty month. Everything's such a drag.

Attending detention class tmr i think,for the first time. Gah this is so troblesome.

Seriously,FML.

Keywords:Mentos advert with eyebags. After physics practical.
See how messy i am today. Lol.

Guess what,i just open up this bear i got from last year's birthday. From Nabilah and Yan.

One year already then open o.o There's alot more bears still in package.

Worn out.

2009-08-04T02:24:00.000-07:00

Just one,my patience has its limits.

Oh and another thing,ive got revulsions on people who tried so much to fit in into the group when they know they couldnt. For me,i'll go with the flow. If i think i cant fit in and better off alone then fine,i'll be by myself or find someone else. Rather than being a busybody and tries to tag along whenever i can. MAYBE this may hit on one or two,but yeah. If this is not= socialize. No,i can mix around just that i'll try to be aware of people's impression towards me being around em',whether they like it or,not. No,then i'll leave. I hope this hits you directly. Oh yeah,i realise ive been walking alone all by myself very oftenly this few weeks since im alone in art class and im not in the same eng remedial with Nabilah,Hamzah or whoever,nah i'll try to adapt to it.

To all. For my birthday gift.

Quit giving me heart aches. Im tired of feeling hurt by people's words.

2.5 months to go and im FREAKING out of this shits!

And another one,thanks to you,im losing all my patience.

YEAH!

2009-08-03T05:23:00.000-07:00

Skipped school today. Mr Tan Kk is an ass,go call my grandma when he couldnt reach mum's phone. Whereas grandma didnt know anything,called me with an shock tone,ask where am i. Haha,she thought i skipped school. Nah,ima good girl,wont skip school without mom's consent. Okay,thats barely the same. Hahaha.

Went to relative's house. Was so saddening,the mood surrounding. Rest in peace,nenek. I know you'll meet late step dad up there already. We'll miss you ): And i missed step dad so much. I miss him eating the kuih i made during puasa night,CONTINUOSLY after i bake it and i'll get pissed off with him and run around the house catching him. I miss that out of all.)): 2nd year of raya without him,time flies so fast.

Am going jogging at 9.45pm with Hamzah.

Let's get fit! :D

Rip.

2009-08-02T03:38:00.000-07:00

Ignore fucked up face.

Believe me ,everyone was looking.

Yesterday's pictures.

Im not attending school tmr,Monday.

Rip Nenek ): First year not having her with us on Raya.

Bnw.

2009-08-01T11:40:00.001-07:00

Will update today outing's pictures tomorrow,since Zuhairi's not onlineing tonight.

So yeah,went to library to accompany Farihin to revise since she skipped her tuition. Met her a 11am,and revised abit and left the library since we're having flu,both of us. Flu flu pun makan hot fudge sundae. (Y) Good,right? Lol. Then walk around causeway for awhile and went back home at 2pm.

Slept till 3.30pm and sewed my bag when i woke up. Well,cause either the bag is long or Im short,lmao. I prick myself with the needles. (Y) Cause my eyes was on the lappy,but my hands kept sewing,so careless. Did chores,bath and got ready. Went to meet the others' at bns and met Yan at yishun since he's from jemputan.

Met Nabilah at padang. Yada yada and then the fireworks showed up. This year's preview,its only for a short while but I think this is the biggest fireworks ive ever seen,cause they combine like 4 to 5 small fireworks in a big one. You'll know if you were there just now. Then heed to Plaza sing and ate at Kfc since marina sq was full. Bounce from marina bay and then back to home. The others alight at admiralty while left me alone alighting at woodlands): Reached home at 11 plus,and im still not shagged. (Believe me,i just sneeze 4 times straight.)

Randomly.
1. Don't piss me off,im angrier with you after each news i get from the others. Since hate is a strong word,i wont hate you. When the fact is tt i despise you. Look at yourself before you point at the others which are much more better then you are.

2. Bad news,and then good news. It happens alternately. When i have already decided to give up on this crush,a good news came. How,i dont know.

3. Im not into this internet world already. Don't approach me saying "Dah lama tak chat." especially internet guys. Im so sick and tired of all this already. Im mean,yes. This includes to the one who have already text me too. Well,my fault to give out my number to you 3 months back. Ive change,i dont wanna be like long ago. And please,dont bother about me anymore,and dont ask if you have any last chances. I dont wanna give out any 2nd chances to anyone.

Long update,yes. Im off already,goodnight! :)
Ps/ Bare with my blogskin till i find a new one soon.

Alot of changes.

2009-08-01T11:34:00.000-07:00

Mary Kate and Ashley.
The Olsens.

Use to be a hug fan of this twin,always looking out for their continuous novels and begging mum like crazy to buy the novels. But now,i dont even recognise which is Ashley and which is Mary Kate. They changed,alot. So much prettier compared to the old them in their 6 years old age.

approach me please.

2009-07-31T19:00:00.000-07:00

Went to arab st to get my bag. But Farihin get hers too. Like another one,shown in the picture. Went to bugis to eat mac cause we're fugging hungry and thirsty since its v v v hot at arab st.

Went back to woodlands and met mom. Heeded to popular and bought my school things. Mom wont trust me and gv me money when i said i'll buy my school things. Cause i'll end up using it for food. I eat alot -.-

Bought ljs for night but end up eating it straight when we reach home. I sleep v v v early yesterday! Lol,friday night and i sleep so early at 8 plus. Wth right,haha. If school days i'll sleep at 2 or 3 sia,lol. Im getting ready after this to go to the lib,revising. And its only 10am. Woah sian,someone disturbed my precious sleeping time. Grr. Haha. Takecare !

do you know?

2009-07-30T05:31:00.003-07:00

If only you could only know whats happening without asking.
If only you could knows how i felt just by watching.
Lies,im becoming to get use to it.

You took it away.

2009-07-29T10:20:00.001-07:00

Maybe im just rushing things. But you had the rights.
I'll try make myself to not be bothered about such things like this.

Almost. Give up.

2009-07-29T09:42:00.000-07:00

Skipped school because of asthma. >Have to face the music tmr cause im giving an excuse letter yet,again after countless of naggings. >Met Nabilah up,she's on mc for three days. > Slack with yan and Hamzah before they went for their remedials.

Heed to Northplaza,had mee hoon goreng. > Mcdonalds to have shaker fries and mcflurry. > Met ain awhile. > Have chocolate ice cream since im craving for one and then met the two up.

Went to causeway with Hamzah again,wanna deposit cash. > He treated us sushi and drinks. > Jog with Hamzah from 9 till 10 plus. > Exercise alone at the exercise corner under my void. > Achieved 180 on standing broad jump when i always reach up to only 160. > Went home,bath and online.

Sorry for kecoh pictures cause i was hyper and sorry for the irritating update,lol. My buncit is showing and Nabilah tegured): I wna have 2 sessions of jogging every week. 4 round of 2.4 path like just now should be okay. I wna have a slim stomach pleaseeeeeeeeeee. And Hamzah did good just now,he didnt stop. But i did. Boo to me. Lol. Im off,bye.

Ade rasa nak sepak orang?

emotional feelings gets mixed up.

2009-07-28T06:03:00.000-07:00

FML.

Wouldnt it be great if everything is in the right place now,just like always? Basically i wont update about school cause its just plain and boring. Just having breakfast at kfc,then lessons and then i skipped my english workshop. Cause i didnt feel that well. Slept and i think my body's warm and i have this sudden flu. If this continue,i'll go to the clinic tmr. There's 3 suspect cases of h1n1 in sch already and we have to at least be self precautious.

Well,everybody's changing,why? Or is it just me? Negative. At least some stays and still hear my craps and my shits whc happens all the time. Positive. Major things are happening in the future,and i havent done anything yet. Negative. And now,no songs can make me cheer up like always. Negative. Basically,im just not myself today.

Got to find my pooh diary after this.
And thanks Hyrul for listening to a part of whats bothering me right now.

My girl.

2009-07-27T07:46:00.000-07:00

School's as per normal and almost all skipped art remedial,so i did too. Went causeway with Farihin as she's craving for himalayan tea at mccafe and im craving for double chocolate frappe and sushi. Watching korean dramas makes me crave for sushi. I wanna buy more tmr,after my english workshop. And i think im going fanatic over lee jun ki for now,hahaha. Ive always like the third party more in the drama. Hee. I think "my girl" is my 2nd favourite korean drama. Boys over flowers is so going down.

Im off,finishing till ep 11 and then wanna do homework. Bye!

What goes around.

2009-07-26T11:13:00.000-07:00

Listening to veryvery old songs at my computer whc i havent open my ares up for ages,feels great man. Songs like come to me by nicole,my heroine by silverstein,the birds and bees by breathe carolina,international you day . Woah sec three songs o.o Its 2.20am now and im aiming to sleep at 2.30am. :) Schooling tmr and trust me,i only touch my homeworks for 30minutes,whc is only the compre part. I dont even understand what the passage is about. Wtf is waterloo? Lol,mom told me its a sports,but whatever i just did the compre without even thinking,haha. I havent yet do the summary,im dead meat tmr. Nevermind,english's right after recess.

Mom had the idea of ordering mcdonalds but wtf she has only 15bucks,as she havent withdraw her money. I thought i have some cash on my wallet,so i check. Then i LOL,lol wtf only 2 bucks. HAHAAHA! Not enough sia -.- Then nevermind,i starve myself till recess tmr. I dont wanna eat maggi for the time being. And i dont wanna consume alot of sugar drinks like how i use to. Thinking about diabetes when mom describe it,its terrifying. And i so wanna watch jangan pandang belakang congkak sey,maybe this week i'll grab someone and watch the movie. People have been talking about it and laughing when i dont even have any idea what is it about. And i think there's chemistry test tmr,but i heck cared -.-

Karma right back at you.Karma right back at you.Karma right back at you.Karma right back at you.Karma right back at you.Karma right back at you.
You use to leave the ones who wants you. But when you wanted someone now,you cant get that someone. Serve you right.

How am i suppose to?

2009-07-26T00:49:00.000-07:00

Sunday's a mundane one. After tuition i watched my korean drama till episode 9 and its almost to 4pm now. I dont intend to go out today except for having the idea to go jog with Hamzah at night sounds fun too. I havent ate anything yet except for drinking milk tea during tuition to keep myself awake. I hate electromagnetic induced whatever shits,i cant understand most of it,but i keep nodding. Gahh,sure need to hit em books soon enough. Well,i havent really did revise except if there's a test over the weekdays.

I feel like having corned beef after this,maybe will cook and mix it with egg or hotdogs and eat with rice,yum. Sounds nice. My stomach's growling,i think there's a dog inside. -.- Lolol,im entertaining myself,mind me. Ha ha. I just realise it exactly 3 months to o levels now,lmao.

"Confess quickly before he likes someone else."
Stop making me worried. Its either now or never.

Cs i cant seem to shake.

2009-07-25T11:50:00.000-07:00

Can't upload the other pictures cause im running out of time. I promised myself to sleep at 3am,and i have 10 minutes left,lol. Im so dead meat,im having tuition tmr at 11am and i still havent slept yet. Well today was spend with Nabilah,Hamzah and then came Yan and then Ishqal. We lepak all the way and talked crap. Went home at 10 and do abit of art and then went online. Im watching this korean drama again,"my girl." Mom and me watching the same drama nowadays,but she's more faster,cause she slept more late than me. o.o

Well,so yeah. Its fucking funny i tell you. I can hear mom laughing in the room and she heard me laughing from the living room. Cause im using the computer today. I can laugh my heart out sia watch this drama! Well im at episode 5 part 3 alr,cool. So fast,i started yesterday only. :) So yup,thats how my day goes. And yeah! "Legent of sevent cutter" was awesome. Yoon eun hye's drama are always awesome. I finished watching it cause its a movie,not a drama. I feel like watching it again,lol.

Im thinking about it,to tell or not to,its embarassing. Im like having a competition now since there's a competitor.Ugh. This is so frustating and i search for my little diary whc i didnt update for ages and write this down. I dont know to whom i wanna let out. :/ Im off alr,4 minutes to 3am! Bye :D

art art art.

2009-07-25T01:46:00.000-07:00

I wna grow fatter): See how my hair curl alr.
Maybe will go lepak with Nabilah and Hamzah today.
I think i wanna be serious in my art alr.

Gosh,someone help me in this.
I dont wanna tell him yet.

butterflies in stomach.

2009-07-24T09:17:00.000-07:00

School was awesome. Just that my moodswings happened on one part of the day. And yeah when i was sleeping during ccd lesson,well i didnt realise i was sleeping,lol. And then dm came into our class and started shouting about those who didnt change back into uniform cause its alr after recess. Shouting and shouting,till we dismissed 20minutes late than usual. And i get to know that 5 dynamic class didnt get the scoldings like how we did. Alah 5 thinking last class what. Ugh teachers hate 5 thinking due to comparisons between 5 dynamic regarding studies and other records.

Back home slept till 5 and had tuition till 6. Was suppose to catch jangan pandang belakang congkak with the usuals,but tutor replied late. So yeah met them at 8pm under my void. Yan and Hamzah went back home while Nab and Zuhairi acc me to the library and we went to eat at mcdonals. And lepak at fushan. Talk alotttttt about friendship. Awh i love today.

Im having butterflies in stomach.

Littlest things.

2009-07-23T05:23:00.000-07:00

Mind tired and fucky face.

Okay today basically,i hate thursday,again. Thursday is such a long day. Had lessons,and i was energetic-less at the start of the day,as i slept really late yesterday,talking with jo on the phone till 2. And yeah,i got to admit. I cant cope with chemistry. ): Every chem lessons,i tried taking down notes,but those "macam paham",cause it doesnt even get into my tiny brains and i find it unlogical. Those chemical equations,i cant understand anything at all.

Had maths remedials at 3 to 4.15pm. Maths remedial is abit interesting idk why,cause i'll start blabbering and talking non stop,lol. Then had geog from 4.30 till 5pm,cause Mr.Zainudin says we look really tired. Great. Met Farihin just outside school and went to get her himalayan tea at mccafe. Then walk around as she wanted to buy a bottom. Every week shopping. Aigoo aigoo! (Korean language.) Lol,then reached home at 7pm.

Having maths and english tuition tmr,tuition have been delaying because of me. Well but the others are catching a movie at cine tmr,how i wish i can join but nope. And yeah,fasting's month nearing,yeay. I wanna try to complete one month of fasting,since my mensus have been coming late. Thinking about raya,makes me nervous cause i know o levels period are at the same time too,gah. Im off,cooking dinner for mom. Bye!

Im over some people who are not worth to be thinking of.

Bitter heart.

2009-07-22T06:31:00.000-07:00

Each time i browse through Yun Eun Hye's pictures of modelling photoshoots,i fall in love with her greatly. No,but seriously. How can someone become so talented and juggle with alot of jobs. Well,cant blame it. She got alot of talents and she got alot of professions to carry out.

Someone i admired,yun eun hye. <3

School>Back home take a nap of an hour>O's mt lc>Lepak till 7 plus.

Mt lc was quite okay,but i still find it abit hard,cause lc is always easy for me. o.o And not complicated like this one. So yeap,just wait for august for the mt o's results,i cant wait. B4 and below,im so gonna retake. Went to lepak with Nabilah,Yan,Hamzah,Ishqal and Haziq after buying light foods. Lol i laugh damn alot today.

Im off,doing homework(s)!

Get well to those who are sick nowadays,and tt includes hyrul and feeqah.

Im hyper.

2009-07-21T08:35:00.000-07:00

See how 'simple and plain' i am in school,:D lol!

Farihin said i look like a nenek while the others told me i look like a cikgu,lol!

Im shagged and i dont know if this is a long or short update. So yeah. First thing first,bloggers if you experiencing problems with blogger as you cannot upload photos and such,use intenet explorer. Cause i think mozilla firefox's the one whc had some fucking issues with blogger.

Well as usual,i love tuesday the most cause there's no english lessons and tuesday is a short day at school,as in lessons,exclusing remedials. Had breakfast at kfc am as usual with Farihin and AS USUAL she was late. Everytime meet her,confirm she late. Wanna get angry also waste time. Lol. Then had porridge and yada yada. After school,had english workshop from 3 till 4.30pm. Great,cause it started off with musical chair but in a different version. Well,our class was split up so its a smaller class,good. Brought abang waffles and then went back home.

I really need to buy a new school cause this sling bag is so killing my neck,cause school books are totally heavy,so i'll try to save up,ugh. Saving up sucks. Lol. Then got ready and met farihin to go to sembawang to get my specs. Late again. Lol. Ate mcdonalds and we parted. Met Nabilah and went to meet jo to pass his compre. Went to northplaza,meet the others,hamzah,haziq and ishqal at haziq's house and we do homework and played carrom at haziq's house corridor,lol for the first time in my life sit at the corridor with the carpets and do homework,lol.

At 10.45 went to 888 with Ishqal and,brought things and he send me off at evg's busttop. So yeap,thats how my day went. Totally tiring. Tmr will be ending late as there is o levels mt listening compre. So yeah,good luck to th others. Im off,bye!

he's no one's. *kening up down.

2009-07-20T07:54:00.000-07:00

I wanna watch this!
But its n21.

19th,

2009-07-20T01:51:00.000-07:00

Told mom to buy fish and chip after work eventhough we cooked spag alr,so tt we could have time to prepare the things. Mom gets home,switched on the lights and there we are,me and abang holding a cake from the kitchen singing hapy birthday song. The first she said was "mak aiii!" then she laughed,haha. We brought her a perlinni wallet,since we're short of money and thats all we could afford after deducting the cake we brought at polar. Not much pictures were taken because of my jendol,lol.
Happy 45th birthday,ibu.
(:

2009-07-20T00:47:00.000-07:00

Im craving for mee hoon goreng. Its alr almost to 4 and i havent had anything yet. I slept till 2pm,so much for promising ibu i'll revise chem and wake up at 10 in the morning,lol. Webcamming with deeyan now,she eating her roti john ): Gah,im so waking ajie up to accompany me to the coffeeshop,bye!

Kiwek.

2009-07-19T11:13:00.000-07:00

Oovoo rocks,because of Mus. Lol.
Im otp with Jo,and im not going to school tmr.
Reason? Cause i didnt do all my english homework(ssss).
Im in the mood to make stupid faces.

Bye.

Bad news.

2009-07-18T23:48:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 10.30am and went to the hospital till 5 yesterday. I was so bored,trust me i didnt do anything except for hearing songs and falling asleep on the chair. Since nenek is asleep at her bed. I almost cried when i saw her. Her condition is likely like my late stepdad.

After 5,went to sembawang to get my specs done. Hope i'll not lost it again since mom spent almost 90bucks on this. o.o Its exp,to me. And i pick white,hahaha. Lol. Then bought pure chocolate at coffeebean but zahirah's not working. ): Heaven sia pure chocolate! Then went back to cwp and i had a dilemma.

On buying this pink handbag/sling bag at metro. Got 2 ways of wearing,damn nice sia. Then the dilemma is that either i take the money from mom and buy a new sch bag OR buy the pink bag. Lol. Since pink so hard to match with anything,then i think i'll just take the money and save up for the rest to buy a new school bag. Then went home and i slept. Not schooling tmr and yet i slept at 10 (Y) I know abang is coming home but i was too tired.

Going cwp later on to buy a cake and something for mom's small bday celebration tonight. And she didnt know anyth,and i havent wished her somre. Okay im off!

World have turned upside down.

2009-07-17T08:59:00.000-07:00

Yeay,ive finish this drama,at last. 16 episodes and it took so long,just because of school. Im so happy now,just by watching happy endings of sweet couples. Quite okay,but i prefer 1st shop of coffee prince and eun yun hye's character there. No doubt,she's such a spoilt brat in this drama,but still i love her. :)

Im lazy to take pictures from my usb for today with ain so yeah. Have school as per normal and went to raffles with Farihin to return our coffeebean uniform back. Not quitting,just that we need to return them and we're allowed to join back,i cant wait for o's to be over. I miss that place so much till i feel lik 'sebak di dada' when i went in there just now,really. Then went to far east with Farihin. And,a handbag/sling bag,a pink one at metro caught my eye just now. I begged mum for it eventho its 10bucks. Gosh,my finance is so hard that i realise i havent been shopping or buy any new clothes for more than 2 or 3 months,really. Or isit 4 months? o.o

And suddenly,mum thought of buying the bag,lol. But there's a problem. Its really striking pink and pink doesnt suit with any colour,and thts why i have second thougts,lol! Maya maya. o.o Sheeeesh,my burp smells durian,i ate aloooooot just now when i got back. Yum. But i miss eating rambutan. Im off,sleeeeeping. Plan's up for tmr and sunday!

Caught in the middle.

2009-07-16T05:07:00.000-07:00

Jendol takecare eh,that was three days back i think. 3 months plus more and im so gonna miss secondary school moments. Im not ready to leave,but i wanna leave. (-.-) Wtfish. Two days straight reach home at 7 plus,im tired like fuck now. Had maths and ss remedial just now whc end at 5.30. Everytime have the intention to skip remedial alr,at last go. Cause? Im scared and lazy cause teacher will ask whats my reason the next day. So might as well go.

Went to cwp cause Farihin dont feel like gg home and wanna have mccafe. As i was saving up for mom's birthday,she belanja-ed me,lol. Then walk around causeway,with our uniform and busuk face of course. Actually having 2.4 run today but im doing it tmr. Gah,so lazy to come school :/ But nevermind,one more day to go till weekends! Wohoooo. My heart jumps whenever weekend comes,really..

And yeah,i cant believe and i think its the first time im having a crush on someone younger.
God,am i in the right mind? Its gonna last only in a short time lah,NOT.
LOOOOOL,im soooo -.-. Having maths test tmr,byee!
Straight sia this week testssssss. Gah.

crushcrushcrush.

2009-07-15T06:49:00.000-07:00

08's picture.

Short update,im not even onlineing,just taking a break from revisions and i snatch the lappy from mum and told her im using it for 5 minutes only. Maybe i shld do this often,not onlineing much. Prelims nearing. No skipping of remedials unless there's smtg impt i have to attend to.

Lessons>Bubble tea and waffles break aft school with Raymond,Farihin,Apul,Jo,Adi.>Chem practical and Physics mock test. Well,everytg ended at 5.45 of course. Then went to cwp with Farihin to get her specs done and lepak ate cheese tarts and eclairs till 7pm. Had some talks,whc ease my mind alr :) Gah,do you know how much i love you Nur Farihin? Hahaha. Im still at my geog revisions,gah. I wanna aim at least b4 for my humanes. Thats my only aim for prelims,lmao. Im out,bye!

I dont know why im avoiding eye contacts with G everytime our eyes met.
:/ Fuck it.

Im NOT in love,damn it. o.o

Crushie.

2009-07-14T05:23:00.000-07:00

No new picture to begin with. Everyday is school school school. Woah sian,can die uh (-.-') Been keeping to myself cause ive been sleeping late and having steamy eyes in class,but im forcing myself to open up my eyes and pay attention when the thing is nothing goes inside my head. Lol.

Art was ... cause Jay lim lectured me about not drawing new things,lol. Ive been only colouring my old drawings and i think i only have 1 and a half boards. And we have to do 8 board in total,lol. Beat that -.- How i wish im still sitting for N's. Im going to start revising on the subject i hate most,chemistry. Well,maybe tmr. Concentrating on geog first since there's a second test on Thursday. Im dying man,DYING(!)

Ive told a small secret about 'G' to Nabilah and Anisah.
You know i know. ;)

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh(!!)

2009-07-13T08:11:00.000-07:00

LG ICE CREAM PHONEEE (!!)
IN PINK OR GREEN PLEAASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Gosh,ive been eyeing for this since last 2months. Currently trying to bodek-ing mum to buy this for me. Or at least sign up for me another 2 years plan,so can have a lower price(!) I wont stop consoling her to buy this as my birthday present. But there's like only 30% sey of the chance to have thissssssssss. So cuteeeee. :x

School's nice to me,but not chem. I cant understand anything,and i mean it. Nothing. Not only topic about alcohol and such,everytg uh about chem sucks big time. The rest was pretty as usual,and actually there's an art remedial to start on our canvas painting this week but the rest skipped,so i did too. But when i called hamzah,he said it was cancelled for the sec 5s cause cher wanna concentrate on sec 4s,cause their dateline more earlier. Lol,thank god. Went back home,slept and revise geog.

Okay today's topic is about having a crush on someone younger. Is it wrong? I mean,nowadays i heard about people having crushes on someone 1 or 2 years younger,but is shy because they are much older. For me,it isnt wrong at all. But,it depends on the maturity of the guy though. Like,okay i can admit that this thing reminds me of mum and dad,cause dad is 2 years younger than mum,but his maturity level is much more lower than his age,so that explains it. The reason why he left and had someone else and left us,because he isnt matured at all.
So yes,i even met someone like 18 or 19 years old but the mindset -.-'. Thats just my opinion though,haha. Random,i know.

Wont be spending much till end of the week cause mum's birthday is on Saturday and im super broke like ****(!) Im planning on some rough plans though. Bye!

Thanks.

2009-07-12T08:34:00.000-07:00

You told me you arent blaming me for what happened,but i know you do. Now everyone's thinking im at fault for this whole thing,right? Am i doing this purposely? No. I promised you i'll be there for you,but you kept saying youre going through things alone. Who am i? Someone invisible? This is so frustrating. Sometimes,i just feel like taking back my words.

Sunday's mundane like hell. Woke up at 10 and had science tuition till 12.30. Played lappy till 5,korean dramas,blogging,chats and texts altogether. Then do maths homework whc i swear i didnt get any of the answer,just one or two right. I hate mensuration and i hate trigometry. Then slept for one hour from 8pm and waited for mom to come back home. Did chores blurrly,cause i just got up.

Bad mood,and i had a tiff with mom. She told me i always do homeworks last minute. Wtf sey,i dont know why uh but i think she's mad at me cause i do the laundry late at night. But its like not surprising sey,cause always what i do laundry at night. o.o Dee called up to ask qns about her maths homework,and we did tgt on the phone.

Art remedial tomorrow,endure baby(!) -.- Swear its too tiring for me. Okay well the others too. Hahahaha. Im offing alr in another 10minutes,past 12 alr. Toodles.

Lots more.

2009-07-12T01:33:00.000-07:00

If you think you've lost respected for us,then go ahead. If you think this is so easy for me to get over with,then you're so wrong. If you think i dont know how to value my friendship,then ive got nothing more to say. Cause maybe its my fault,but its you who're not admitting to your mistakes.

To think about it,yes i do spend time placing myself in your situation. But if you did at least drop some of your ego and apologise,wouldnt things be more easier now? But you treasured your ego more,than you treasure your loved ones,from what i look back. Think back,what we've done to make each other happy,safe and secure? There's alot more i would wanna say with no one particularly to get involve with this. But no,you wont. You told me once youre independant,but the opp for me. I kept quiet cause i think so too. But now,how?

Why am i so fickle-minded?

2009-07-11T10:48:00.001-07:00

Had late late lunch at banquet at 6,with Apul, Malek, Feeqah, Jo and Izwan. Last minute plan actually. Then went to bottle tree at Khatib to slack and watch this dayak movie whc is so freaking me out, at Izwan's lappy. Get to play the swing before that,with Feeqah. Around 10.30pm, heed to the bus stop and parted,one by one. Thanks to Malek and Jo for sending me home.

Im searching for trouble,its almost to 2am,and i havent turn in yet,still on my korean dramas and chats. Combine science tuition at 11 tmr,im sure gonna turn in,in another 20minutes time. If there's no chats whc will stop me from offlineing.

I dont understand why am i so fickle minded. Oh god.

ugh.

2009-07-11T00:45:00.000-07:00

"It hurts to know that you'll never remember the things all never forget."

You hate the feeling of your ex forgetting about you. You still remember all your precious moments together that will never leave. You know it's time to move on but a part of you still wants to hang on.

I took a "whats your cute quote" quiz at facebook,and this is what i got.
To think about it,it seems quite true.

2009-07-10T22:24:00.000-07:00

Happy belated 17th birthday to Shahfiq.

You got me so low.

2009-07-10T19:50:00.000-07:00

At last there's time to change a new layout,so sick of the old one. Okay first up,how's my mt oral o's? BAD. Cause i gagap,i think my smile's not sincere cause my heart beats fast i feel like it will fell any moment. And i said "dorang" instead of "mereka" one time. The invigilators repeat the question like as if i answered the question wrongly. Like i talk no link sia. And lastly,i think im the most quick one. Cause the others took more than 10mins sia,i sat there for only 5 minutes. (-.-')

Back home at 4 and watch vineyard man. Still at the boring part. One thing about korean dramas,the first part confirm boring. Slept at 7 and till the next day. Sorry for those who did texted me. And its only like 10 plus am now,so siang sia. For me lah. Maybe will go eat with Farihin after her tuition.

Outing with mus to transformers keeps delaying cause remedials ends at 6 everyday.
Ugh this is so frustrating,imy.

This was yesterday,celebrating our form teacher's birthday.
She didnt know anytg of couse,happy 28th!

2009-07-09T07:20:00.000-07:00

Had school till 6 today. Just like ytd. Ytd was combined science,both practicals. And today is geography and maths remedial. Had geog test and im sure im gonna fail it. Instead of revising for it ytd night,i slept the whole day out,till the next day(Y) Had maths remedial whc only me and apul and 3 other chinese attended. See how good we are. The others? Cabut,as usual. Plan to cabut also but mom knows my plan alr -.- She'll kill me if i cabut maths remedial today.

Had napfa test and as usual,i fail everything i think. Heh. Went home,bath,ate and online. Daily routine. And guess what? Another new korean movie,im only at episode 1 of the vineyard man. Heeee. Psst,having o levels oral mt tmr,wish the rest luck okay!

Im off,chatting till 12 and offline-ed! :)

anyone up?

2009-07-07T08:09:00.000-07:00

Its a confirmed that im crazy over yoon eun hye alr. So dont be surprise to see her as my post picture nowadays. She's the girl from coffee prince. Look at how she changes her images and all. From a tomboy to a O.O Go go see my old post. Ugh. One of her model pict whc is at my last two post,is my desktop wallpaper,fyi.:)

Shag spells me. School is madness. Had a long day yet im informed at the very last minute that i have english remedial at 4. So i went back and cook some food for brother and then went out again. Met Sofea and heed to the library. Only 6 sec 5s and the whole lot was from sec 4 exp. At that point of time,how i wish,i really really wish im at home. I was so tired i slept but didnt realised it.
And hell yeah,i faced 2 hours for english remedial. Met Farihin up at 6 plus,and went to have bubble tea and cup corn. Finish off my energy left for the day and went home.

Slack,bath and do the chores. Brother cook corned beef and ate tgt. Did homework and got online-ed. Im freaking tired to even answer akmal's call. Sorry dude. Gotta face another long hard day tmr. 3 more months baby! Wohoo! -.- Im motivating myself fyi. Mum and bro snoring alr,and yet im still awake. I gotta rest,goodnight fellas!

Its over between me and you,dont come back saying you miss me,ever again.
Good luck w life.

2009-07-06T06:56:00.000-07:00

Went to meet the couple at library at 6.15pm and do homework,lepak and eat pizza at bazaar. Well,i havent finish it up,and im offing soon. There's alot more maths question to do. And i havent done my art preps,ugh. How i hate school. And i think ive made up my mind. I dont wanna go poly,i wanna go shatec. But the fee's 8k,so i'll just consider cause of my mum's financial. Paii's in shatec alr,woah so cool sey! But the timetable very hectic uh, 8 to 7 everyday and 8 to 4 every sat.

Bumped into paii just now. And atika all. He asked me to go shatec this year,sept. Ugh,this is so frustrating. If not for the o levels fee are alr paid. )):

Photoshoot.

2009-07-06T00:34:00.000-07:00

Okay,laugh. Haha. I know,funny. Lol. So yeah,from a to z about the make up trial and all the photoshoot for pengantin and stuffs. Well,not working just volunteering for my kakak sdare whc took this mak andam course. Reported at cityhall's mcd at 8.45am to have breakfast and so on. First time ever in my life having a photoshoot like this. So yeah,it was tiring. I thought the photoshoot is with Kak fini only but then its one by one. Kak fini's damn pretty,plus it was damn frustrating that i had the traditional kind of clothes while the others? Moderm ones. -.- And having the judge to see which of the one is the bets make up artist. Well the judge liked how my hair is done. The other models were nice too.

So yeap,i stayed in there for a few hours tilll 5 plus,and i kept sneezing cause i cant be in air conditioned rooms for quite long. Had late lunch at sakura and then went back home. Reached woodlands,and it was raining so heavily so i took a bus home. The air conditioned was at max i think and i was shivering for real. Stupid bus driver. Reached,watch korean drama and yeah,slept. Abg promised to come but he didnt. And i slept early cause i dont feel quite well.

Anywhoos,i finish watching 1st shop of coffee prince alr! Wehuuu! Go watch please?
I watch through youtube. Hee. The last picture no link but i think she's amazing and she's freaking absolutely fuckingly stunning. Ugh,if only ima korean guy.But one thing,i dont like the wauy she went around acting and kissing other guys even tho its her job uh,acting what. But then,could be just a peck on the lips sia. Like bof's kisses are fake. But her's. Okay maya,stop it.

Im off!

Sing along.

2009-07-04T07:56:00.000-07:00

Nasi ayam penyet at Novena with Farihin was (Y). Was at least expecting Mustika and someone to appear up but didnt. Aiyah. Then went windowshopped and Farihin brought this korean ice cream,nice. Now i know,novena such a boring place to go,cause cotton on's on renovation. And novena is full of sport's shop.
Went around and saw Zafira's group at the gaming guitar hero competition. Well who won?
I dont know. Cause we went off.

Then went to Yishun and went to popular to search for Maths tys,but dont have.): And other school stuffs. Parted with Farihin cause she's gg her grandma's house and then to causeway's popular again to find tys. But no,dont have again. Gah,so fast sey finish. Then bought mee goreng for mom and went back.

Im having stomach cramp cause of mensus and im having cramps at my thighs too cause did napfa test on friday. Ugh. Lembik sia maya! My standing broad jumpe 161,im so dissapointed): I so want a retake! Tomorrow's sunday! And i have to report at cityhall's mcd at 8.45am,gah! I'll be up in the wee morning. Waiting for abang to come home now,and yeah finishing my korean drama. Offf,bye! :)

Thank god the pict cant be enlarged,my face -.- Lol.
Mr Ratish gg aussie to continue his studies. ): 5 thinking will miss you badly.
Youre the most fun teacher i ever had.
Takecare.

fuckyoufuckyoufuckyou.

2009-07-03T19:51:00.000-07:00

GO AWAY,I HATE YOU.
UGH.

Wont be onlineing much.

Indifferent.

2009-07-03T01:30:00.000-07:00

Im almost to 10 episodes,on watching the 1st shop of coffee prince. Another gerek korean drama i get addicted to. 6 more episodes and im done. But i think im watching another one whc mum reccomended me. And guess what? She's on taiwan movies alr,lol.

School was alright. Well,i didnt attend sch yesterday cause of a tiny bit of slight headache. But i met Farihin up after her remedials whc end at 6,and went to banquet to have a very late lunch. Im having my meals late if im not schooling,thats what i realise just now.

Im happy currently because today's Saturday. Weekends coming babee! And yah,monday's youth dayyy yipee! Have 3 days to rest and slack and do art. But,ive got plans for two days alr. So i guess i'll continue on my art preps on Monday. Since tmr im going out to fetch Farihin after tamp and have a walk around and maybe have nasi ayam penyet ria cause im craving for it like crazy. And late afternoon will be to my kakak sedare's house to do a hair trial. For the sunday thing. So yeap thats my plan for my weekends. ^^

School was alright,maths was great. I use to like Mrs ong when im in my sec one/twos. Cause she's good in teaching maths. And i got into her class. Two periods of maths doesnt seem even boring or sleepy at all. Eventhough i sat at the back. Farewell party after bell rings for Mr Ratish,one of our form teacher was quite okay. Cause he talk to us,and asked us to sutdy like a dog and yada yada y'all shld know a form teacher's mind set. Then had pizza at the canteen.

And bad news,his replacement is soo -.- Seriously. I dont like our new form teacher and he's our physics teacher too. I hate him more than i hate Miss Lim Xian ting. Grr.
5 thinking will definetly miss you,Mr Ratish.
Im off.

Randomly.

2009-07-01T21:34:00.000-07:00

Grab from mus's blog since i dont have anytg to do.

1. What's your room colour?

Light purple.

2. What's your actual height?

Ard 1.5-1.6.

3. If you are told to get married quick, what will you do?

I'll go against it,even when its mum. I still want my freedom.
But getting married quite cool too,can start life alr. :))

4. If your boyfriend or sister(s) would say " break up", what's your reaction?

Give me ten good reasons why i should. But normally bro wants the best for me. ^^
So i should listen to him.

5. If your brother would be in jail, what will you do?

Sounds mean,but let it be. Let him realise his mistake.

6. If your boyfriend or girlfriend would end up in hospital & in coma, what will you do?

Obviously visit him and keep him accompany. Or if can stay there till late and sleep there.

7. If you saw someone stripless whats your first reaction?

Shock,but just buat bodoh. Haha.

8. Last person you chat with?

Kak fini regarding sunday.

9. Whose the last person who texted you and what?

Afiq,about... something. Lol.

10. What's on your playlist now?

Caught in th middle by a1.

11. The last thing you ever brought at a shop?

Long john's.

12. What's the most silly/cute thing your boyfriend or girlfriend last did?
Im craving for cookies and ima at home and the thought of buying me some,but i insist.

13. It's white and sticky. what is it?

HAHAHAH only lah!

14. A romantic dream. Would you like it to be happen to you?

Sure,why not?

15. Give 1o people that you wish to do this survey.

No one , all malas.

16. Right now, what you wish to be happening to you?

Someone cooking those pancakes at my kitchen for me,i lazy. But i wanna eatttt.
And my mensus to come cause its making me and mom worried cause 1 month plus never come alr. Where are you?! o.o

17. If you caught boyfriend or girlfriend in red handed in having affair?
Obviously break up laah.

18. If your mum gave you a thousand dollars, what will you do?
First,shop till i drop. And bring along Farihin and Nabilah w me. Haha.

19. Right now, what are you thinking?

Hot pancakessssssss.

20. What is a thing that you want to burn so much, right now?
Cockroaches.

23. Do you wish someone to be by your side, right now?
Farihin. Haha. Since i didnt hear her blabbering for one whole day.

24. Which country would you want to go?
New york.

25. Would you ever wish to kiss someone else?
Sure. Jihoo. ^^ I'll never let go,darling. HAHAHA.

26. Your friend list, if you would lost one friend what will you do and who?
If its my mistake,i'll apologise. If its their mistake and they dont wanna apologise,then hell yeah just heck care.

27. If there's young baby on your doorstep, what will you do?
"Ibuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! Alhamdullilah. Dah lama adik nak adik!"
Cause ive always wanted a younger sister/brother.

28. If your girlfriend or boyfriend got you pregnant, what will you do?

Never. But since its an if,i'll keep the baby. Or maybe plan on a marriage.
Having sex before marriage is alr sinful,whats more if i throw the baby away? So no way.

29. What's the last sweet thing your loved ones ever did to you?
- I cant rmb any.

30. What would you want to happen the next morning you woke up?
Money all over my bed. Haha XD

Shagged as fuck.

2009-07-01T07:28:00.000-07:00

Mind big pictures. Im using photobucket and im very lazy to resize the photos for yesterday gg to tpy. =x Had school as per normal for two days. Just that today sucks alot? Yeah. Cause its evg 10th anniversary. At least have something on for us. Yeah we have new tees to wear. But i ordered s and its like m o.o Very big,classmates ask me to pose like those hiphop poses,haha yeah i did,lol.

Well we are inform that we are hvg lessons after recess onwards. Well at first I dont wanna come to school cause im having a slight headache. Well then Farihin threatened me! Ugh! Then i came,and guess what? We have our lessons as usual,wtf. I hate ss. Whoever the teacher is. And guess what,im transferred to Sabrina yong's class. We are having split up class,for almost all lessons. And yup,geog too. Spliting up between Zainudin's and Mrs Harris class. Wtf i want Zainudin sia! Lol. K stop it.

Blablabla,had physics remedial and chem practicel after school. Whc everything finishes at 6. -.- Bathed and go cwp to fetch my kakak sdare cause she's pregnant and its alr magrib. So its not tt safe. She brought me and mom ljs. And then we had the make up trial. Cause she ask me to volunteer to become her model for her course. Lol,and i think im wearing marriage gowns on sunday. Having settling hair trial on friday. Gah. And mom said i look different with those thick make ups just now. Lol im so not gonna upload here but i'll show Farihin instead. Lol sia!

Off,im VERY shagged today. And im having a slight headache from just now.
Bye.

come on get higher.

2009-06-29T05:50:00.000-07:00

Blogger's stupid. Can't upload photos and i have to upload at photobucket,grr. Oh btw! Such a waste of time to go to school today,cause there's no lessons all the way till end of school. Cause there's this freaking h1n1 talks and about this torch things whc came out at the news ytd. And i was feeling so nice i brought all my books,including maths. Cus i dont really bring my maths book all the time. :) And my bag was freaking heavy it hurts my neck alot.

Okayokay,quit complaining. Just that my temperature was 37.4 in sch just now. Another 2 more celcius and i have to go home,lol. So close to have my bed alr,instead of wasting time at school. But neverminddd,i enjoyed kecoh-ing with the others,hehe :D Back home and i slept till 4 plus. At 5 went to have late lunch with mom at banquet. The porridge seems so nice,at the fish soup stall. But when i bought it,its not the same in the picture. Its not even like porridge. Just normal rice in the soup. Thats not even porridge sia. -.-

Nevermind,tmr can have porridge. Lol. Having kfc am with Farihin and Ishqal. (Y) Or maybe having waffles. Yum,my stomach's growling alr. And i feel like buying hot cakes mixture later on. When abang gets here again cause he's spending the night again here. And yeah,maybe will be watching transformers with mus. Or either w the others as well,nabilah yan all. But not sure. Lol,transformers? I think i never watch action movies at the movie before sia,all ghost or love movieeees. Haha xD Like at last im watching transformers. Lol!

Woah long update. I wanna watch korean movies bye!

Lazyyyyyyyyyy.

2009-06-28T04:20:00.000-07:00

Thinking about starting school tomorrow makes me weak. Ugh,how unfair it is to have extended holidays for the others but not us. ): Im having flu and sorethroat right now,so might be possible if im not coming school tomorrow. But i wanna meet Farihin,so if coming tomorrow,its because of her. Guess what? I havent touch my homeworks yet. Yeay -.-

Will be doing some of th art preps later on. But i feel like having a nap now. My bed so cooling and my bantal busuk is so calling me. Once i grab my bantal busuk,fuh confirm i sleep till 9 siul! Im not online at msn currently cause i dont feel like chatting much nowadays. I'd rather watch movies online or continue my korean drama episodes.

Im off.

Primary.

2009-06-27T07:12:00.000-07:00

Laugh as much as you want.
Lmao.

Krukkurukkruk.

2009-06-26T12:51:00.000-07:00

I fugging miss you,ass.

Alamak,2 days more and school reopen alr.
Good for the ite students and some poly students. Probably only Nanyang and Republic having a week or another 2 more weeks of holiday. Woahhh! Sian ah korang,very lucky. Guess what? I havent touch my english compre,5 sia! Ahhhhh,k im dead. Viknesh confirm killing me!
Off,its alr 4am now. Mom using comp,im using lappy.(Y)

Ohyah,R.i.p michael jackson.

2009-06-26T01:50:00.000-07:00

Im fugging bored and sleepy. Will be having tuition in half hour time. Ugh. So not having the mood to revise science. But nevermind,since ive got smtg to look forward to. I just had my computer repaired,yeay. Thanks repairman! :D Screen more bigger than lappy sia,more better use comp. Cause lying down while using lappy is soo giving me a backache. So yeap,after tuition will be heeding to courts to survey speaker for the computer. Since my speaker bo liao already.

So yeap,thats it,about my day. Oh yah,btw i woke up at 3pm again just now,lol. Eventhough i slept early at 2am yesterday,zzz. O.O Right now i just want some pocket money to go out tmr. Oh please mommmmmmm? *insert pathetic face. Ugh. So tt i can go and fetch Farihin at Tamp tmr after her tuition and have lunch with her. Im so tired of woodlands alr. Always banquet and fast food. -.- Nothing elseee. Im off. Maybe can have a 15minutes nap. Hee.

Yeah i think what you're doing now is right.
I'll think about it,your question.

Moodless.

2009-06-25T08:46:00.000-07:00

For two days straight,i woke up not early then 3pm. And ajie just went back home,house went all quiet alr. Mom have alr went to sleep and im bored now. Wanna blogshop,but my items are almost to all pending by the other blogshops alr. Gah,what to do what to do. If i were to watch a movie,cant cause im really sleepy now. Maybe i'll just sleep after this.

My day is okayokay. I woke up at 4 and yeah,met two blogshoppers at cck and kranji. Then went back home,and do maths online homework. I havent submit it,cause damn hard. And i only do some qns. I hate vectors like how i hate my first kiss who dumped me. Okay that was seriously random. Idk why he's on my mind suddenly. But right,thats the only thing i can think of now whc i hate the most.

Another thing. I gave up,whoever. Seriously. Get this in your head. No use on telling me the next time on are you over me,or not. Eventho i seem to miss you at times. But,i'll be very happy to see you this way. With alot of friends surrounding you. Seem to change where the old you is just go to work and be in your own world. But remember this,i'll treasure our memories eventho we never have been together. I'll never despise you,despite you telling me its not because of faded feelings. I dont care alr,your reasons. What i know,i'll treasure everything. And of course,the bear whc you gave me on my birthday wch have alr witness me on my downs, and when im all hype up. Thanks f everything.

I miss ain i wana meet you tmr dnejfbjtgnioaefrn!
K bye.

Why?

2009-06-24T10:32:00.000-07:00

Some of the webcam pictures we snap before going out just now. Lol and we realise our hair length is like the same so Nabilah called me her twin cause we had the same hair. Lol. Well yeah,waited for Yan at my house and then went to rp. Well,tried to do homework but yeah,as you expected. Ugh. :/ Lazyness. Lol. My head's spinning to think that holidays are soon to be over. Afiq repeatedly come to visit and lepak since he got no mood to break yet. :)

Its not exceptionally unfair that the ite students and the poly students are getting a one week extend holiday on their side. Well,not for the secondary school students. So,so unfair. But nevermind,i doubt i wont come to school the whole week. Ahh,lazy.

Well,yeah. Lepak and eat maggi after 9.30. Believe me,we were hungry and we all turn silent when we were having our maggi cup. Hahah! Like seriously. Waited for Aref and Hamzah and lepak awhile till 11pm. Then went home. Btw,happy 17th to Aref B Kamaruddin. :)
So yeah,enough for now. Im having a headache now,and im turning in after this.

To think that i stiill hv to endure a long journey,i feel like giving up alr.

Last minutes.

2009-06-23T13:21:00.000-07:00

First, its irritating that pimples are already coming out. Second, its annoying that my ulcer's not getting better or even smaller. In fact, it stays just the way it is. ): Im having a hard time to drink or even to eat or laugh. Cause the ulcer is just beneath my lips, and its bigger than ever.

Ive finish the sec ones and sec twos maths online homework, thank god. There's no sec 5 ones,and i think we need to do all of em'. So yeap,going to rp to finish up 5 english comprehensions. Hopefully the others will co-operate and reduce talkings so i wont be distracted. Last minute homeworks. (Y)

And i still miss Farihin,and a get well soon to you babe. Go to the clinic if it gets worse.
Are holidays extending? Oh god,please. One more week and i'll be more than satisfied. Im off,its alr 4.45am and im crapping with Ajie from just now.

"Love is like a wind,you wont see it but you feel it."

Lalala~

2009-06-22T15:29:00.000-07:00

Ps ps,mind my blogsong for awhile. Mum find bof osts and now im also obsess over it.
Eventhough i dont understand what they're singing. Heh. :D

Woah 6.30am alr. o.o

Thanks f everytg.

2009-06-22T06:24:00.000-07:00

If only i got that kind of colour tone,i'll be very very satisfied sey. No,i didnt edit. Just the lighting from the window :) Had my first set of food for the day at 5,at banquet with Farihin accompanying me. Thanks alot. Thought of going down to my block's coffeeshop but was lazy to :/ And i rly rly feel like going out today. Bored of being stuck at home. So yup,went to Northplaza cause i feel like having chocolate snowshake put jelly! Lol,then parted with Farihin and met Afiq at my block's area.Went to rp and meet Feeqah up. I expected a smile actually babe): Then slack with Feeqah and then with Afiq. He and his stories! Heh,okay tak. Currently conferencing with Feeqah and Afiq,wah sian. Feeqah noisy sia. Hahaha. Off,its alr 5,20am 0.0

First,what were you thinking?!
Second,I think i'll try to get use to having this feelings,of loneliness.

Whats love'?

2009-06-21T13:04:00.000-07:00

Out of all pictures.. That explains so much,boredom. Ive been stuck at home for the past three days. As in not going out in the afternoon. Cause i join Yan and Nabilah lepak ytd ytd night from 8.30 till 10.30pm(Y) Uber bored. Then Hamzah and Ishqal join,last minute lepak. Mom have been overtiming and ive got ntg to do,and i dont really have the mood to study. :/ Didnt went out yesterday(since its alr almost to 5am) except for going for a late dinner with mom,cause she finish her work at 9pm. Was craving for spaghetti,but there's only fish and chip and chicken cutlet left. So i just ate chicken cutlet,and i didnt finish it. Big mistake,cause im hungry like -___- right now.

Mom's veeeeeeery talkative now. Talking about korean actors and actress wah i think she more fanatic than me. Dinner just now was full of talks,without stopping i think. Hahah. Okay. Im currently watching this Korean drama. Full house(Y) About this actor whc force himself to married this random girl cause he dont wanna confess to the girl he like,because tt girl likes someone else. But at the same time her feelings were also not returned. And how the married couple live together and fell in love without noticing. Hilarious,i laugh alot watching this!

Ohyah! Vote for extend holidays at the sidebar. A one minute vote only.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/singapore/index.htm

boredxz.

2009-06-21T01:21:00.000-07:00

ARGHHHHHHH! Grown tired of blogshopping already.
Im booooooooooooored,i wna go out.):
Im hungry,alr almost to 5,and i havent even eat anytg.

Like this can be skinny sia. Ytd i didnt eat anytg till 7 plus.
(Y)

Fuckkkk. K im bored. o.o

AINXZXZXZXZXZXZXZ!

2009-06-20T00:48:00.000-07:00

And. I miss you,badly.
Meet me soon,citotet.

During tuition,from citotet.
"Maya aku rindu kau k bye."

To you: Aku rindu kau jugak k bye.
xD

http://youplusmeequalsfriends.blogspot.com/
and here,smtg from mus.
a post whc made me lost for words.

The 19th.

2009-06-20T00:30:00.000-07:00

Happy 2nd year to Muhd Suphian and Siti Nur Nabilah.
The always quarelling but last couple.
Last till forever.
I envy you two,fyi. :)

Thanks you two for being there,always.

Jia you!

2009-06-19T13:16:00.000-07:00

I miss those feelings when i pass my n's and make mum proud. No one ever expected me to have the chance to go sec 5. Even mom and,abang. Well,i'll try my best on my O's this year and make mom proud yet,again. I'll start on my revisions,soon enough.

I can't help but to think tt i wont change,ever.
AND yeah. Boo,i know you can make it. Im doing this too.
Endure just fr awhile more.
xoxo.

ugggggggggggggggh.

2009-06-18T11:53:00.000-07:00

All i wna see is a smile on each and everyone's face.
But i seem to ruin smtg.
Im not ready to face it.
:/

I'll tell you someday,okay?
I'll look like a total idiot saying whats on my mind,
that have been disturbing me all this while.
Negative.

I cant take this any longer.

2009-06-17T12:15:00.000-07:00

However,i miss school already regardless that i'll be sleeping throughout lessons. I miss changing after recess with the other girls and making alot of noise and having endless laughters. I miss having Mr Zainudin telling us lame jokes when i'll be giving 'what is he talking about' look to th others. I miss looking at classmate's headbanging cause they're sleeping and with their eyes half open during Mr Alawden's lessons. Well,thats the only thing on my mind tt i could think of now whenever th school topic hits me.

Im getting bored of my own blog,i think im getting a new skin despite of ive just change the skin a few days ago,tehehe. Im having insomnia for real for the past three days and its suffffffffers me,alot. As im known for snorlax by deeyan and sleeping beauty by afiq. I loooove sleeping and i use to sleep whenever i can. Serious. I treat my sleeping time my first priority,even more important than friends. Those who are close shld know.I even delay most of the plans because i wna get my sleep. (Y)

And now its like,i'll always turn in early like around 2,but i'll get to sleep at 5. I slept,but i repeatedly wake up. Gave up ytd,and i went to th kitchen. Seriously,i think thats my first. Even if im thirsty or i feel like gg to the washroom during my sleep,i wont ever get up cause lazy to go down th bed stairs.(Cause double deck.) Lazy ass. So i feel like ytd was my first cause i carried my heavy butt to go to the kitchen. I dont even know why i cant get to sleep. Perhaps there's alot of things in mind to think about. But yesterday,thanks to Afiq to even reply my text at 5 in th morning and stay up.

No plans fr tmr. Last minute ones maybe?
And i think i better get a grip on myself and hold onto what i have.
But i think im letting everything out to someone,soon enough.

I need entertainments.

2009-06-16T07:17:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 2 and get online. Got ready and went to cwp to have lunch with Ain at banquet. Around 5,went to rp and meet the others,and afiq up. Yada yada,studied just abit and talk alot. Well,more to the usuals than Ain. I still miss Ain though. Went to lepak at our usual place when i told them i wanna go home. And yeah,home-ed!

Insecure/Uneasy/Unsatisfied/Akward.
Thats how im feeling now. No reasons. No,there is. But i dont think i should elaborate. Not th right time. I just dont feel right. My mind's gna explode any moment. -.- And i hope i can sleep well today. Without tossing and turning for hours. Not gonna be online aft this.

Toodles.

I miss extensions.

2009-06-15T12:41:00.000-07:00

I feel nothing but restless and bored of life.

Depending on tmr to have my laughters back.
Havent been going out for two or three days.
Or maybe thats th reason why im like this.
I miss Farihin lahhhhhhhh sia!

Whatthehellamidoing?

Sup?

2009-06-15T05:48:00.000-07:00

Was suppose to go Sentosa with Farihin and classmates. Apologies to Zahirah,Apul and Ishqal for making you waste your time persuading me to go. Eventho you three keep repeating money isnt the problem. I cant stop thinking that im such a burden to friends,most of th time. No,but really. Well... but whatever it is,i know you're having so much fun there. :)

Have been doing nothing at home. Sleep,wake up,lappy,sleep,wake up,lappy. Cause mom have been switcing on the lappy and watching princess hours from 2pm. Gah. She's like more fanatic then me. And i swear i havent been sleeping well yesterday morning. Cause i went in to sleep at 3am but ive get to sleep like 1 hour plus later. Honestly,i dont even know whats on my mind. Gonna clean myself up and chill,yet again. Oh yes,i dreamt about my late stepdad. I was quarelling with him,as always. How i missed him. ))))):

"I keep hearing voices in my head. That what im doing now is wrong."
Dont' ask,just ignore.