approach me please.

Went to arab st to get my bag. But Farihin get hers too. Like another one,shown in the picture. Went to bugis to eat mac cause we're fugging hungry and thirsty since its v v v hot at arab st.

Went back to woodlands and met mom. Heeded to popular and bought my school things. Mom wont trust me and gv me money when i said i'll buy my school things. Cause i'll end up using it for food. I eat alot -.-

Bought ljs for night but end up eating it straight when we reach home. I sleep v v v early yesterday! Lol,friday night and i sleep so early at 8 plus. Wth right,haha. If school days i'll sleep at 2 or 3 sia,lol. Im getting ready after this to go to the lib,revising. And its only 10am. Woah sian,someone disturbed my precious sleeping time. Grr. Haha. Takecare !

do you know?

If only you could only know whats happening without asking.
If only you could knows how i felt just by watching.
Lies,im becoming to get use to it.

You took it away.

Maybe im just rushing things. But you had the rights.
I'll try make myself to not be bothered about such things like this.

Almost. Give up.

Skipped school because of asthma. >Have to face the music tmr cause im giving an excuse letter yet,again after countless of naggings. >Met Nabilah up,she's on mc for three days. > Slack with yan and Hamzah before they went for their remedials.

Heed to Northplaza,had mee hoon goreng. > Mcdonalds to have shaker fries and mcflurry. > Met ain awhile. > Have chocolate ice cream since im craving for one and then met the two up.

Went to causeway with Hamzah again,wanna deposit cash. > He treated us sushi and drinks. > Jog with Hamzah from 9 till 10 plus. > Exercise alone at the exercise corner under my void. > Achieved 180 on standing broad jump when i always reach up to only 160. > Went home,bath and online.

Sorry for kecoh pictures cause i was hyper and sorry for the irritating update,lol. My buncit is showing and Nabilah tegured): I wna have 2 sessions of jogging every week. 4 round of 2.4 path like just now should be okay. I wna have a slim stomach pleaseeeeeeeeeee. And Hamzah did good just now,he didnt stop. But i did. Boo to me. Lol. Im off,bye.

Ade rasa nak sepak orang?

emotional feelings gets mixed up.

FML.

Wouldnt it be great if everything is in the right place now,just like always? Basically i wont update about school cause its just plain and boring. Just having breakfast at kfc,then lessons and then i skipped my english workshop. Cause i didnt feel that well. Slept and i think my body's warm and i have this sudden flu. If this continue,i'll go to the clinic tmr. There's 3 suspect cases of h1n1 in sch already and we have to at least be self precautious.

Well,everybody's changing,why? Or is it just me? Negative. At least some stays and still hear my craps and my shits whc happens all the time. Positive. Major things are happening in the future,and i havent done anything yet. Negative. And now,no songs can make me cheer up like always. Negative. Basically,im just not myself today.

Got to find my pooh diary after this.
And thanks Hyrul for listening to a part of whats bothering me right now.

My girl.

School's as per normal and almost all skipped art remedial,so i did too. Went causeway with Farihin as she's craving for himalayan tea at mccafe and im craving for double chocolate frappe and sushi. Watching korean dramas makes me crave for sushi. I wanna buy more tmr,after my english workshop. And i think im going fanatic over lee jun ki for now,hahaha. Ive always like the third party more in the drama. Hee. I think "my girl" is my 2nd favourite korean drama. Boys over flowers is so going down.

Im off,finishing till ep 11 and then wanna do homework. Bye!

What goes around.

Listening to veryvery old songs at my computer whc i havent open my ares up for ages,feels great man. Songs like come to me by nicole,my heroine by silverstein,the birds and bees by breathe carolina,international you day . Woah sec three songs o.o Its 2.20am now and im aiming to sleep at 2.30am. :) Schooling tmr and trust me,i only touch my homeworks for 30minutes,whc is only the compre part. I dont even understand what the passage is about. Wtf is waterloo? Lol,mom told me its a sports,but whatever i just did the compre without even thinking,haha. I havent yet do the summary,im dead meat tmr. Nevermind,english's right after recess.

Mom had the idea of ordering mcdonalds but wtf she has only 15bucks,as she havent withdraw her money. I thought i have some cash on my wallet,so i check. Then i LOL,lol wtf only 2 bucks. HAHAAHA! Not enough sia -.- Then nevermind,i starve myself till recess tmr. I dont wanna eat maggi for the time being. And i dont wanna consume alot of sugar drinks like how i use to. Thinking about diabetes when mom describe it,its terrifying. And i so wanna watch jangan pandang belakang congkak sey,maybe this week i'll grab someone and watch the movie. People have been talking about it and laughing when i dont even have any idea what is it about. And i think there's chemistry test tmr,but i heck cared -.-

Karma right back at you.Karma right back at you.Karma right back at you.Karma right back at you.Karma right back at you.Karma right back at you.
You use to leave the ones who wants you. But when you wanted someone now,you cant get that someone. Serve you right.

How am i suppose to?

Sunday's a mundane one. After tuition i watched my korean drama till episode 9 and its almost to 4pm now. I dont intend to go out today except for having the idea to go jog with Hamzah at night sounds fun too. I havent ate anything yet except for drinking milk tea during tuition to keep myself awake. I hate electromagnetic induced whatever shits,i cant understand most of it,but i keep nodding. Gahh,sure need to hit em books soon enough. Well,i havent really did revise except if there's a test over the weekdays.

I feel like having corned beef after this,maybe will cook and mix it with egg or hotdogs and eat with rice,yum. Sounds nice. My stomach's growling,i think there's a dog inside. -.- Lolol,im entertaining myself,mind me. Ha ha. I just realise it exactly 3 months to o levels now,lmao.

"Confess quickly before he likes someone else."
Stop making me worried. Its either now or never.

Cs i cant seem to shake.

Can't upload the other pictures cause im running out of time. I promised myself to sleep at 3am,and i have 10 minutes left,lol. Im so dead meat,im having tuition tmr at 11am and i still havent slept yet. Well today was spend with Nabilah,Hamzah and then came Yan and then Ishqal. We lepak all the way and talked crap. Went home at 10 and do abit of art and then went online. Im watching this korean drama again,"my girl." Mom and me watching the same drama nowadays,but she's more faster,cause she slept more late than me. o.o

Well,so yeah. Its fucking funny i tell you. I can hear mom laughing in the room and she heard me laughing from the living room. Cause im using the computer today. I can laugh my heart out sia watch this drama! Well im at episode 5 part 3 alr,cool. So fast,i started yesterday only. :) So yup,thats how my day goes. And yeah! "Legent of sevent cutter" was awesome. Yoon eun hye's drama are always awesome. I finished watching it cause its a movie,not a drama. I feel like watching it again,lol.

Im thinking about it,to tell or not to,its embarassing. Im like having a competition now since there's a competitor.Ugh. This is so frustating and i search for my little diary whc i didnt update for ages and write this down. I dont know to whom i wanna let out. :/ Im off alr,4 minutes to 3am! Bye :D

art art art.

I wna grow fatter): See how my hair curl alr.
Maybe will go lepak with Nabilah and Hamzah today.
I think i wanna be serious in my art alr.

Gosh,someone help me in this.
I dont wanna tell him yet.

butterflies in stomach.

School was awesome. Just that my moodswings happened on one part of the day. And yeah when i was sleeping during ccd lesson,well i didnt realise i was sleeping,lol. And then dm came into our class and started shouting about those who didnt change back into uniform cause its alr after recess. Shouting and shouting,till we dismissed 20minutes late than usual. And i get to know that 5 dynamic class didnt get the scoldings like how we did. Alah 5 thinking last class what. Ugh teachers hate 5 thinking due to comparisons between 5 dynamic regarding studies and other records.

Back home slept till 5 and had tuition till 6. Was suppose to catch jangan pandang belakang congkak with the usuals,but tutor replied late. So yeah met them at 8pm under my void. Yan and Hamzah went back home while Nab and Zuhairi acc me to the library and we went to eat at mcdonals. And lepak at fushan. Talk alotttttt about friendship. Awh i love today.

Im having butterflies in stomach.

Littlest things.

Mind tired and fucky face.

Okay today basically,i hate thursday,again. Thursday is such a long day. Had lessons,and i was energetic-less at the start of the day,as i slept really late yesterday,talking with jo on the phone till 2. And yeah,i got to admit. I cant cope with chemistry. ): Every chem lessons,i tried taking down notes,but those "macam paham",cause it doesnt even get into my tiny brains and i find it unlogical. Those chemical equations,i cant understand anything at all.

Had maths remedials at 3 to 4.15pm. Maths remedial is abit interesting idk why,cause i'll start blabbering and talking non stop,lol. Then had geog from 4.30 till 5pm,cause Mr.Zainudin says we look really tired. Great. Met Farihin just outside school and went to get her himalayan tea at mccafe. Then walk around as she wanted to buy a bottom. Every week shopping. Aigoo aigoo! (Korean language.) Lol,then reached home at 7pm.

Having maths and english tuition tmr,tuition have been delaying because of me. Well but the others are catching a movie at cine tmr,how i wish i can join but nope. And yeah,fasting's month nearing,yeay. I wanna try to complete one month of fasting,since my mensus have been coming late. Thinking about raya,makes me nervous cause i know o levels period are at the same time too,gah. Im off,cooking dinner for mom. Bye!

Im over some people who are not worth to be thinking of.

Bitter heart.

Each time i browse through Yun Eun Hye's pictures of modelling photoshoots,i fall in love with her greatly. No,but seriously. How can someone become so talented and juggle with alot of jobs. Well,cant blame it. She got alot of talents and she got alot of professions to carry out.

Someone i admired,yun eun hye. <3

School>Back home take a nap of an hour>O's mt lc>Lepak till 7 plus.

Mt lc was quite okay,but i still find it abit hard,cause lc is always easy for me. o.o And not complicated like this one. So yeap,just wait for august for the mt o's results,i cant wait. B4 and below,im so gonna retake. Went to lepak with Nabilah,Yan,Hamzah,Ishqal and Haziq after buying light foods. Lol i laugh damn alot today.

Im off,doing homework(s)!

Get well to those who are sick nowadays,and tt includes hyrul and feeqah.

Im hyper.

See how 'simple and plain' i am in school,:D lol!




Farihin said i look like a nenek while the others told me i look like a cikgu,lol!

Im shagged and i dont know if this is a long or short update. So yeah. First thing first,bloggers if you experiencing problems with blogger as you cannot upload photos and such,use intenet explorer. Cause i think mozilla firefox's the one whc had some fucking issues with blogger.

Well as usual,i love tuesday the most cause there's no english lessons and tuesday is a short day at school,as in lessons,exclusing remedials. Had breakfast at kfc am as usual with Farihin and AS USUAL she was late. Everytime meet her,confirm she late. Wanna get angry also waste time. Lol. Then had porridge and yada yada. After school,had english workshop from 3 till 4.30pm. Great,cause it started off with musical chair but in a different version. Well,our class was split up so its a smaller class,good. Brought abang waffles and then went back home.

I really need to buy a new school cause this sling bag is so killing my neck,cause school books are totally heavy,so i'll try to save up,ugh. Saving up sucks. Lol. Then got ready and met farihin to go to sembawang to get my specs. Late again. Lol. Ate mcdonalds and we parted. Met Nabilah and went to meet jo to pass his compre. Went to northplaza,meet the others,hamzah,haziq and ishqal at haziq's house and we do homework and played carrom at haziq's house corridor,lol for the first time in my life sit at the corridor with the carpets and do homework,lol.

At 10.45 went to 888 with Ishqal and,brought things and he send me off at evg's busttop. So yeap,thats how my day went. Totally tiring. Tmr will be ending late as there is o levels mt listening compre. So yeah,good luck to th others. Im off,bye!

he's no one's. *kening up down.

I wanna watch this!
But its n21.

19th,

Told mom to buy fish and chip after work eventhough we cooked spag alr,so tt we could have time to prepare the things. Mom gets home,switched on the lights and there we are,me and abang holding a cake from the kitchen singing hapy birthday song. The first she said was "mak aiii!" then she laughed,haha. We brought her a perlinni wallet,since we're short of money and thats all we could afford after deducting the cake we brought at polar. Not much pictures were taken because of my jendol,lol.
Happy 45th birthday,ibu.
(:

Im craving for mee hoon goreng. Its alr almost to 4 and i havent had anything yet. I slept till 2pm,so much for promising ibu i'll revise chem and wake up at 10 in the morning,lol. Webcamming with deeyan now,she eating her roti john ): Gah,im so waking ajie up to accompany me to the coffeeshop,bye!

Kiwek.

Oovoo rocks,because of Mus. Lol.
Im otp with Jo,and im not going to school tmr.
Reason? Cause i didnt do all my english homework(ssss).
Im in the mood to make stupid faces.

Bye.

Bad news.

Woke up at 10.30am and went to the hospital till 5 yesterday. I was so bored,trust me i didnt do anything except for hearing songs and falling asleep on the chair. Since nenek is asleep at her bed. I almost cried when i saw her. Her condition is likely like my late stepdad.

After 5,went to sembawang to get my specs done. Hope i'll not lost it again since mom spent almost 90bucks on this. o.o Its exp,to me. And i pick white,hahaha. Lol. Then bought pure chocolate at coffeebean but zahirah's not working. ): Heaven sia pure chocolate! Then went back to cwp and i had a dilemma.

On buying this pink handbag/sling bag at metro. Got 2 ways of wearing,damn nice sia. Then the dilemma is that either i take the money from mom and buy a new sch bag OR buy the pink bag. Lol. Since pink so hard to match with anything,then i think i'll just take the money and save up for the rest to buy a new school bag. Then went home and i slept. Not schooling tmr and yet i slept at 10 (Y) I know abang is coming home but i was too tired.

Going cwp later on to buy a cake and something for mom's small bday celebration tonight. And she didnt know anyth,and i havent wished her somre. Okay im off!

World have turned upside down.

Yeay,ive finish this drama,at last. 16 episodes and it took so long,just because of school. Im so happy now,just by watching happy endings of sweet couples. Quite okay,but i prefer 1st shop of coffee prince and eun yun hye's character there. No doubt,she's such a spoilt brat in this drama,but still i love her. :)

Im lazy to take pictures from my usb for today with ain so yeah. Have school as per normal and went to raffles with Farihin to return our coffeebean uniform back. Not quitting,just that we need to return them and we're allowed to join back,i cant wait for o's to be over. I miss that place so much till i feel lik 'sebak di dada' when i went in there just now,really. Then went to far east with Farihin. And,a handbag/sling bag,a pink one at metro caught my eye just now. I begged mum for it eventho its 10bucks. Gosh,my finance is so hard that i realise i havent been shopping or buy any new clothes for more than 2 or 3 months,really. Or isit 4 months? o.o

And suddenly,mum thought of buying the bag,lol. But there's a problem. Its really striking pink and pink doesnt suit with any colour,and thts why i have second thougts,lol! Maya maya. o.o Sheeeesh,my burp smells durian,i ate aloooooot just now when i got back. Yum. But i miss eating rambutan. Im off,sleeeeeping. Plan's up for tmr and sunday!

Caught in the middle.

Jendol takecare eh,that was three days back i think. 3 months plus more and im so gonna miss secondary school moments. Im not ready to leave,but i wanna leave. (-.-) Wtfish. Two days straight reach home at 7 plus,im tired like fuck now. Had maths and ss remedial just now whc end at 5.30. Everytime have the intention to skip remedial alr,at last go. Cause? Im scared and lazy cause teacher will ask whats my reason the next day. So might as well go.

Went to cwp cause Farihin dont feel like gg home and wanna have mccafe. As i was saving up for mom's birthday,she belanja-ed me,lol. Then walk around causeway,with our uniform and busuk face of course. Actually having 2.4 run today but im doing it tmr. Gah,so lazy to come school :/ But nevermind,one more day to go till weekends! Wohoooo. My heart jumps whenever weekend comes,really..

And yeah,i cant believe and i think its the first time im having a crush on someone younger.
God,am i in the right mind? Its gonna last only in a short time lah,NOT.
LOOOOOL,im soooo -.-. Having maths test tmr,byee!
Straight sia this week testssssss. Gah.

crushcrushcrush.

08's picture.

Short update,im not even onlineing,just taking a break from revisions and i snatch the lappy from mum and told her im using it for 5 minutes only. Maybe i shld do this often,not onlineing much. Prelims nearing. No skipping of remedials unless there's smtg impt i have to attend to.

Lessons>Bubble tea and waffles break aft school with Raymond,Farihin,Apul,Jo,Adi.>Chem practical and Physics mock test. Well,everytg ended at 5.45 of course. Then went to cwp with Farihin to get her specs done and lepak ate cheese tarts and eclairs till 7pm. Had some talks,whc ease my mind alr :) Gah,do you know how much i love you Nur Farihin? Hahaha. Im still at my geog revisions,gah. I wanna aim at least b4 for my humanes. Thats my only aim for prelims,lmao. Im out,bye!

I dont know why im avoiding eye contacts with G everytime our eyes met.
:/ Fuck it.

Im NOT in love,damn it. o.o

Crushie.

No new picture to begin with. Everyday is school school school. Woah sian,can die uh (-.-') Been keeping to myself cause ive been sleeping late and having steamy eyes in class,but im forcing myself to open up my eyes and pay attention when the thing is nothing goes inside my head. Lol.

Art was ... cause Jay lim lectured me about not drawing new things,lol. Ive been only colouring my old drawings and i think i only have 1 and a half boards. And we have to do 8 board in total,lol. Beat that -.- How i wish im still sitting for N's. Im going to start revising on the subject i hate most,chemistry. Well,maybe tmr. Concentrating on geog first since there's a second test on Thursday. Im dying man,DYING(!)

Ive told a small secret about 'G' to Nabilah and Anisah.
You know i know. ;)

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh(!!)

LG ICE CREAM PHONEEE (!!)
IN PINK OR GREEN PLEAASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Gosh,ive been eyeing for this since last 2months. Currently trying to bodek-ing mum to buy this for me. Or at least sign up for me another 2 years plan,so can have a lower price(!) I wont stop consoling her to buy this as my birthday present. But there's like only 30% sey of the chance to have thissssssssss. So cuteeeee. :x

School's nice to me,but not chem. I cant understand anything,and i mean it. Nothing. Not only topic about alcohol and such,everytg uh about chem sucks big time. The rest was pretty as usual,and actually there's an art remedial to start on our canvas painting this week but the rest skipped,so i did too. But when i called hamzah,he said it was cancelled for the sec 5s cause cher wanna concentrate on sec 4s,cause their dateline more earlier. Lol,thank god. Went back home,slept and revise geog.

Okay today's topic is about having a crush on someone younger. Is it wrong? I mean,nowadays i heard about people having crushes on someone 1 or 2 years younger,but is shy because they are much older. For me,it isnt wrong at all. But,it depends on the maturity of the guy though. Like,okay i can admit that this thing reminds me of mum and dad,cause dad is 2 years younger than mum,but his maturity level is much more lower than his age,so that explains it. The reason why he left and had someone else and left us,because he isnt matured at all.
So yes,i even met someone like 18 or 19 years old but the mindset -.-'. Thats just my opinion though,haha. Random,i know.

Wont be spending much till end of the week cause mum's birthday is on Saturday and im super broke like ****(!) Im planning on some rough plans though. Bye!

Thanks.

You told me you arent blaming me for what happened,but i know you do. Now everyone's thinking im at fault for this whole thing,right? Am i doing this purposely? No. I promised you i'll be there for you,but you kept saying youre going through things alone. Who am i? Someone invisible? This is so frustrating. Sometimes,i just feel like taking back my words.

Sunday's mundane like hell. Woke up at 10 and had science tuition till 12.30. Played lappy till 5,korean dramas,blogging,chats and texts altogether. Then do maths homework whc i swear i didnt get any of the answer,just one or two right. I hate mensuration and i hate trigometry. Then slept for one hour from 8pm and waited for mom to come back home. Did chores blurrly,cause i just got up.

Bad mood,and i had a tiff with mom. She told me i always do homeworks last minute. Wtf sey,i dont know why uh but i think she's mad at me cause i do the laundry late at night. But its like not surprising sey,cause always what i do laundry at night. o.o Dee called up to ask qns about her maths homework,and we did tgt on the phone.


Art remedial tomorrow,endure baby(!) -.- Swear its too tiring for me. Okay well the others too. Hahahaha. Im offing alr in another 10minutes,past 12 alr. Toodles.

Lots more.

If you think you've lost respected for us,then go ahead. If you think this is so easy for me to get over with,then you're so wrong. If you think i dont know how to value my friendship,then ive got nothing more to say. Cause maybe its my fault,but its you who're not admitting to your mistakes.

To think about it,yes i do spend time placing myself in your situation. But if you did at least drop some of your ego and apologise,wouldnt things be more easier now? But you treasured your ego more,than you treasure your loved ones,from what i look back. Think back,what we've done to make each other happy,safe and secure? There's alot more i would wanna say with no one particularly to get involve with this. But no,you wont. You told me once youre independant,but the opp for me. I kept quiet cause i think so too. But now,how?

Why am i so fickle-minded?

Had late late lunch at banquet at 6,with Apul, Malek, Feeqah, Jo and Izwan. Last minute plan actually. Then went to bottle tree at Khatib to slack and watch this dayak movie whc is so freaking me out, at Izwan's lappy. Get to play the swing before that,with Feeqah. Around 10.30pm, heed to the bus stop and parted,one by one. Thanks to Malek and Jo for sending me home.

Im searching for trouble,its almost to 2am,and i havent turn in yet,still on my korean dramas and chats. Combine science tuition at 11 tmr,im sure gonna turn in,in another 20minutes time. If there's no chats whc will stop me from offlineing.

I dont understand why am i so fickle minded. Oh god.

ugh.

"It hurts to know that you'll never remember the things all never forget."

You hate the feeling of your ex forgetting about you. You still remember all your precious moments together that will never leave. You know it's time to move on but a part of you still wants to hang on.

I took a "whats your cute quote" quiz at facebook,and this is what i got.
To think about it,it seems quite true.

Happy belated 17th birthday to Shahfiq.

You got me so low.

At last there's time to change a new layout,so sick of the old one. Okay first up,how's my mt oral o's? BAD. Cause i gagap,i think my smile's not sincere cause my heart beats fast i feel like it will fell any moment. And i said "dorang" instead of "mereka" one time. The invigilators repeat the question like as if i answered the question wrongly. Like i talk no link sia. And lastly,i think im the most quick one. Cause the others took more than 10mins sia,i sat there for only 5 minutes. (-.-')

Back home at 4 and watch vineyard man. Still at the boring part. One thing about korean dramas,the first part confirm boring. Slept at 7 and till the next day. Sorry for those who did texted me. And its only like 10 plus am now,so siang sia. For me lah. Maybe will go eat with Farihin after her tuition.

Outing with mus to transformers keeps delaying cause remedials ends at 6 everyday.
Ugh this is so frustrating,imy.

This was yesterday,celebrating our form teacher's birthday.
She didnt know anytg of couse,happy 28th!