Is this an illusion?

Guess what! I watched twilight for the umpteen times. I guess I'll nevaaaah get tired of twillight and.. edward (:

Sucha laze around afternoon. Its already like half an hour more to 7 and i havent did any revisions,good maya good. Ive been on the lappy since i woke up at 2pm. Well i was so obsessed with my novel of New moon already,i read it till 3am ytd. I read half of the book already that time,but i dont quite like Jacob being in the story,so i did skipped a little,and i ignored when i didnt understand one part. So yesterday,i restart all over again since i already watch the trailer of new moon already. I so cant wait for November. O levels so what,wont take much time if i catch the firssssst movie of new moon. Gah,you can say im so obsessed over this series of teenage and vampire love story.

I dont know if im gonna have my shower after this,or either i'll watch hsm 2 and 3,finishing it off. Let's see how things goes. Im oh-so-bored. My anti thunder boy hafta go johor and there's no one to chat with now. Lol,anti thunder or what! Hahah. And guess what,i forgotten to take my medications again -.- Lol. Was suppose to take 6 tablets of asthma pills in the morning,but i forget. Had to take 2 plastic antibiotics,well they look like plastic bombs,small ones. And i forgotten,haha. I'll be dead if the doctor knows i havent been consuming my medicines when im going the appointment next week,to check on my asthma improvements.

Why did Edward have to leave Bella? Why did Jacob came? Why did Bella kisses Jacob when she knows she still loves Edward? And,why must this story being so complicating! Thanks ah stephanie meyer. Haha. And yeah,Isabella's a nice name.

Okayy,its either im gonna have a short haircut,or either keep my hair long and perm it. I feel like having curls omg. But its gonna be like till next year,cause i wanna keep it looooooooooong like rapunzel,ok no. Haha. Im off,and sorry nabilah i couldnt follow y'all up to have a bowling session. Promise i'll hang out with y'all next time okay.

Dont laugh,lol.

Dont blame me,this is one of Tasha's crazy ideas. Laugh out loud,i look so happy up there. And since ages i didnt tie my hair that way,trust me. Haha. Im like sooo hyper now (!!) Okay,good thing to start off my day,its already exact 12 mid. From Weeman's video of funny ones,from Haiqal's jokes,and from everything,im so hyper today. Scroll fown for the pictures,i'll update at the bottom of this.





Haha look at Tasha! I keep giggling looking at all the webcam pictures for just now. Its like,so many it reaches 50 pictures,but i just uploaded the best 6,lmao! Okay! First up,school! We had physics test,but i scored like 8/16,so its like only gah,not so good -.- Lol,i didnt know there was a test till i reach school in the morning,so its a last minute study one. How i wish im one of those brilliant students whc do last minute works but still,pass all the test,woah!

Had mt whc was so not looking forward to,then Pe. Ran 3 rounds instead of 4,i dont wanna get stomach cramps tmr -.- Lol,unlike Zahirah and Farihin whc sits outside dnt room and hide from Mr Sanjay,hahaha! So yeap,i dont wanna play captain's with my classmates,i rather play with the girls only,cause if the guys have,i'll surely will not get a chance to hold the captain ball,wtf right! Played badminton with alternate peoples,Tasha,then Ishqal then Muzzamel and then Nabeelah.

Had recess and changed with the rest. As im saying,i was feeling so hype up,i'll tell yaw later on. (: And yeah,i laughed without motive,i did stupid jokes in the toilet,roflol. But when the girls left me in the toilet and switched off the lights,its so creepy! I cant see anything sia,i scream and bang run to catch the closing door sia-.- Had briefings at the hall,whc i swear i didnt know what its all about,cause i was talking all the way,hahaha. Was suppose to follow Zahirah,Nasha and Farihin for the lunch at gelare,but nevermind lah,too exp. Haha. I was half broke. Accompanied Tasha home,and waited for her to shower and all,then went to triple 8 to buy take away kfc meals,and went to my crib. Well,as usual,i had my shower,we played the lappy and i slept. GAAAAAH! Tasha said i snored sia,ok not snored,she say im like out of breath when im sleeping. Well,for the reason of im having my asthma attacks nowadays,thats why i think. Well,then had tuition when my cousin reach my place,6 till 7.30. Revise maths and then they ate and talked with mom. (:

Went to buy bubble tea and slack around at fushan,talked and taaaaaaaaaaalked, alot of things to make this girl realise her mistakes lah aiyoo. Then depart and then went home to watch pesta perdana but its boringgg so i switch on my lappy. And thats that! Okay best,nows the reason why im so hype up. Well,tasha i keep advicing you about this and that right? It hitted me. If i say there's other guys whc could appreciate you more better than the one right now whc youre dating,it goes for me as well. Im likeeeeeee so almost over him. Thats the reason why im so hype up. Im offfffffffffffffffffffffffff,bye !

Takes time.

Tasha said i look sick in here. Aww,baby,im always sick,haha. Look at my eyebags,proves that ive been revising geog for like two days straight from night to 3am. Well,cause i need not attend school for that 2 days. Can't deny im an owl,lol. Afternoon time is sleeping time and morning time is the time when i'll be awake to face my books,starting today(!) Common test is so gonna be stressing me out,cause im like soo way back,not understanding alot of topics and subjects. So i really need to revise 2 subjects per day now.

Im thinking of going to the rugby match later on at 4.45pm,its only 3.20 now,so i can have my own time having a shower and all. Let's see how. If not,i'll be either sleeping cause its gonna be cold as im alrd hearing the thunders already. Its gonna be raining so heavily in anytime soon. Gaaaaah (!!) My bed's calling me,i swear. Haha. I really must quickly take my towel,closing my eyes so that i CANT look at my bed,and run to the bathroom. Gah i sounded so much like a physco,a lazy one. Real lazy. Okay maybe i SHOULD face my books,since mom's having her overtime till 9pm today and im all alone at home. Im thinking of asking someone out to Fushan to help me with my maths or either,science or worse,socialstudies. I got 3/25 for my social studies test,i know. Its too surprising to even say anyth. (:

I havent took my geog common test for this week. Gah,idk if i can take it anot. Cus they say there wont be any retake,with or without mc,omg wtfg! Ive like already sooooooo hardworking on this rainforest topic already siaaa. Sch was quite okay,except that chem and maths was fucking frustating,the others quite okay. I'll be like shouting all over when i cant understand this whole load of equation,wtf right. Stressing much,then somre manager say .. Okay nevermind,its about my pay thing uh,no need to elaborate. I so wanna work i want money maaaaan,but ugh studies(!!!!!!!) Okay,i think im not going online tonight,i'll try finishing my revisions then i can TOUCH my lappy. -.- ugh,i have to do thisssssss. So anything,please guys,text me. Gonna be alone at home till night. Good luck rugballers. (: Lol for the rugby match later on,i think im not going,lazzzzzy sia. Im taking a nap till 6pm,bye!


And yessssssss,i so gonna wait for november for New moon,whc is twillight part II, ugh! Freaking long man,die die must watch(!!!!)




And another one,17 again whc is zac efron acting wooooo! April sia omg-.- So long. Another die die must watch !


:D

Had a bad day but no one cares.

Random but nice right the rainbow!!!

Im feeling all sleepy,all fucked up. I think im gonna force myself to take a shower and revise geography again. And did i tell you,i revised geography till 3am yesterday and mom accompanied me by looking at my chemistry book and wrote down chemistry notes for me. She asked me to find free time so that she can teach me about this ionic and convalent bonding(Y) Woahseh! So yeap,will be attending school tomorrow,and oh my,i dont know where's my mc,haha zangada (!)

And did i tell you I had a bad day today,minus off the times i had with Ain? Well,Ishqal was one of the reasons. Thanks to Ain ONLY for cheering me up and accompanying me to eat,since no one wants to accompany me. The others,perangai macam babi uh,serious. So yeap,it was raining so heavily today,met ain up at 5pm,and we had kfc for lunch. Well,that was the first time i ate for today. 5pm,wasnt that late? And i think im losing weight,gah i must buck up to gain weight. Cus i dont really eat that much nowadays. And im crazy over high school musical now,say im outdated but wtv,haha. I spent like 5hours for hsm 1 and 2. :D

For now,Zac Efron is the most hottest guy in my mind,period. Idc if he's Vanessa Hudgen's or whatever,he's just freaking hot lah can(!) Fucking perfect.

I dont know but im feeling so agitated now. About everything,fuck everything man!

Karma karma karma.

I hope karma come right back at you. Karma is going around,so just takecare of your feelings get hurt. Im not someone who could work on what i am revenging on. Im not someone who could do everything i wanted. I'll just leave to fate and just sit down and watch what's happening to you. Whenever my eyes are set on you,i feel nothing but just anger or maybe,revenge. I dont mind being evil. I dont even care on the voices that are whispering about me. If you think i could forgive you just like that,you're so wrong. Believe me,you have turn me into someone full of hatred. Thanks,for making my life miserable,typical boy.

I dont know what happening to everyone. Like serious fucking shit! If you're getting tired of me,tell me straight right in my face,please? Bye.

To you.

Your old attitude is coming back,please dont follow your own feelings of being stubborn,please.

We're going on so well,this friendship.

Where did i go wrong?

This was yesterday's. I miss the person who ALWAYS wears this cap.

I didnt attend school today. I seriously cant stop coughing. So much for staying up late to complete one drawing of art preps,and accompanying Ajie at the same time. Went to marsilling polyc at 2pm,accompanied by mom,mom didnt went to work because of me. Sorry Mom. First up,there's not much people. And yeap,went to consult the doctor,and because of mom told the doctor about my fever have been turning on and off within 2 weeks,the doctor send me to the lab to test my blood. The thinking of they're taking my blood out,makes me ugh,so disgusted,and i scolded mom. -.-' So yup,that doctor injected me,and he asked me whether its pain,i close my eyes,and just shook my head quickly,lol.

Get to know asthma's reacting back. Doctor have me 2 days of mc,and i had a asthma counselling. I got tons of pills to take. Brought food and then went back,eat and i took my med and went to sleep. Maybe im going to sch tmr,common test coming nearer,next week omg. -.-' Im gonna have a cooooold shower.

Hot news coming to me everyday,you're so.. how to say bitch but for males? Wtv.

Il you.

That was a few days back. My sorethroat's getting bad. I cant stop coughing. It gets worse when im at home. I had woods already,but its not working. If its gonna stay this way,im gonna go to the clinic's with brother tomorrow,period. Since he's here,I'll take advantage of that,nyeahaha. And Zen,Im sorry for everything :( Like seriously. I dont know what came up yesterday night,or is it last two day's night? Wtv,i just wanna apologise for my fucked up attitude. I just dont know what i want at this moment. Whether you wanted to forgive me,its up to you.

School's not that alright. Geography was abit sleepy and i keep sucking my water bottle to make me awake. English was o.O I expected Mr Viknesh to ask me to stand up like the other to scold me cause i know my english comprehensions is always badly done. Let me highlight it,always. But surprisingly,he says i did well yeay,improving from the first compre. But err,still fail,lol! Had recess but my porridge was not even 1/4 done and i threw it. I just dont have the mood to eat. Well,i skipped art remedial again today. Nevermind,i'll do my preps after this. So i have a reason to at least reduce Mr jay lim's scoldings. Hehe. Had lunch with my girls at cafe galilee at the library,and then waited for brother to accompany him to renew his passport,back home and i slept right after i changed and ate my woods. Woo,cold sia my throat! But then,it didnt work somehow. Mom's so hyper now she's singing chinese songs,idk why,lol!

Random,but i dont object to girls with girls relationships. I feel like talking about people now. And yup,if you think my title says Iloveyou,nope its not,its Iloatheyou. Get what i mean?

Geog test tomorrow,wish me luck. Art preps after this,bye.

I wanna grow more fat.

Im still thinking of going to school tmr. I wanted to go,cause I wanted to prove myself im strong. I wanted to fight with my feelings and not losing to __. Well,fancy confessing to me and the next day a girl's pict was at his screensaver? Wow. (Y)

Im all alone at home and mom will be back by 9.15pm. I swallowed two panadols, the last one hour,and im thinking of swallowing straight all remaining 6 -.- I get irritated when im sick. Cough,ulser down the throat,fever,headache. Will it go any bad? Its 7.30pm already and yet,what i ate was only 4 pieces of chipsmore. I cant be bothered,cause whenever i eat/drink,when it went down the throat,i had to endure the pain -.- Thats why im not eating. Idk what to do now,and im like currently only texting Fir. Nothing else. Maybe i'll just revise some geog abit. I'll try to go to school tmr. Im out,chiao.

"Whats the point of us? Shedding our precious tears for someone that has bullshit everything. Faking our heart. We are humans. No point dragging everything back. Its already gone,moving on is the first thing you must remember cause we must show them we are way perfect without them. You had the same situation as mine. Kene bustard. Whats the point? Think all back? We need happiness,no more misery."
-Fir,thanks.

No way!

Okay,its like 2 minutes before the clock strikes 5am now,and i swear im still not sleepy. Am currently chatting with Ef and Deeyan,and Ef is soo making me awake. By telling each other problems,and to his random questions about my happiest day in my life. Sorry uh,but havent happen yet uh. :p So yeap,im updating about yesterday where i woke up at 3pm,cause i wasnt feeling well. I can sense that fever is coming up so yeap,i texted Tasha to cancel the plan. But was bored and i dont wanna be a lazyass so i texted Tasha again to come after 4pm. Got bathed,and she came with whip potato,cupcorn with extra butter and a big gulp. Swear i feel loved sia. Cause idk uh,i just got up right,then till 4pm i havent even had anything. Thought wanna eat maggi bowl whc was soo tempting,but then nvm,Tasha's reaching my block at that point of time,and i quickly fry some chicken nuggets for her. So yeap,we watched saw 2,but tasha freaked out so we move on to he's not that into you,but had sound problem then we move on to a cinderella story,watched halfway cause the buffering is too slow. So yeap,we went out of my house at around 9.30pm,annd went to Northplaza.

Tasha asked me to buy ginger beer,a gassy drink whc can cure my ulser in my throat. And she brought redbull-.- I wanted to but she didnt let me,grr. We slacked for awhile and i went home after that. Ate panadols and slept for like 30minutes. Aircon was on,but i was sweating. Lol. I cant sleep after that,so i went online. Mom had me swallowed this one cup of so smelly barley drink whc like drain water sia omg! Feel like vomitting at that point of time but mom forced me -.- Lol so yeap,now im like having laughters because of ef and dee,or isit me entertaining myself? Whatever uh,but still.. Haha. Im off,its 5.33am sia! I think im offing at 6,k go! Goodnight babies.

Colgate advert. Eee colgate is so common,darlie ah k!

Case tgh high ah kan during make out,haha k no. Yknow i know. hhahaha!

Maya buat muke pathetic,tasha was singing! HAHAHA.

I saw smth whc made me fucking upset.

River Flows In You - Yiruma

I lisetened to this type of songs whenever i hafta relax myself. Im so in love with bella's lullaby.

And believe me,im still angry about this certain person. I dare not say who he is,but just,if you're reading this,its you. I heard alot about you. I saw alot,and that makes you the bad guy here? Stop saying as though you're innocent. Believe me,i'll stop exchanging glances with you right after monday. What do i want actually? Really,i just want you to stop lying to me,and pretended to confess honestly and whatsoever. Only you knows if the confessions are real ones,ask yourself,why are you doing all this?

Thanks to Ishqal and Tasha for giving me advices eventhough i'll always deny it.

I THINK im moving on.

Okay look, ive smiled widely already,pea. (: Whoever you are,cause i know you did tag my blog some time ago,right? Well,thanks for your advices. Why my angry post? Cause im so stupid,yup thats the answer. But now im moving on,i think. If only i can move on so fast. If only life's as easy as im thinking right now. If only i can get anything i want,in life. Wouldnt it be great? Wtv.

School was okayokay,i understand physics and i pay attention on physics class for the first time. I'll usually sleep or write down notes without even understanding. Topic of converging lens♥So then,had malay whc was so boring and Pe,whc we run 4 rounds around the field. Suppose to play captain's but me and the others did not,lazy. Lol. Recess-ed and Tasha was so excited after ___ wished her Happy birthday. Well,she got soooo high and she kissed me on the cheeks. Fyi,thats her first kiss to me. :) Lol. Well got changed and we sabo-ed her in the toilet. Anisah,Nabeelah,Ain,Me and Tasha. We played with the mop,sponge in the washroom,the room was messed up. (Y) Cleaner went in and gave us a -.- lecture. Well i just walk off and wait for them outside.

Had ccd and we had to do target thing. I really wanna go temasek for culinary but must get 14 points wtf! If not i wanna go Shatec! -.- Dont care. Hmm,then got changed and let me summarise it up,since im fucking tired and im not feeling well.

` went home and do the plan things. kecoh gila!
` brought last resorts of presents for tasha,and went to her house.
` blindfold her in the taxi,reached sembawang park,the others are waiting.
` open up her blindfold,and shouted surprise. :) can see her surprise reaction though.
` eat pizza,took pictures and sabo each other. i also kene(Y) -.- everybody was running around saving their own appearance,hahahaa.
` sabo-ed with chocolate cake and floooooour.
`eat,took pictures and went to the sea. played truth and dare by the sand.
` my question for truth is "have you ever like anyone in class?" LMAOOOOOOOO. Simple answer,guys.
`till 6.15,went off and some went to coffeebean sunplaza and slacked.
`back to wdlands,went hardcourt with some,watch schmates play touch rugby.
`went off with tasha and dee,send dee home,and walked ard cwp with tasha,then slack at fushan.

` reached home 10.20 exact.

let the pictures do the talkings okay. and yup,im like having this ulser in my throat,and when i cough/sneeze,the pain went up tp my head,its freaking pain i tell you. idk why,but i know,i'll be having a fever soon. Plans for tmr: Tasha's coming my house. So yup,let's hope i'll get well by tmr,pretty please.

And to you. Stop it,like seriously. If you think by saying "I have feelings for you,but i have feelings for someone else too" for the second time will be okay for me,its not FUCKING okay i tell you. Wake up maya, he's like.. never serious in this kindaf thing. You did the mistake twice,why thrice now? Come onnnnnnnnnnnn! *slap me please. And lastly,thanks to this guys whc made my day up. Im trying real hard to find things to laugh at,i even laughed at the simplest things,im sorry if im being retarded,i just dont wanna be upset about __,anymore. Zahirah,Hamzah,Syafaat,Ishqal,Ain,Zaki,Nabilah,Rozaime,Deeyan and Nasha. ♥♥♥ Y'all are loved,thanks for making this thing a successful one.

Happy 17th,darling. I hope you like the presents i had for you. Eventho i spent below 35bux,not like farihin,fyi she's the one who fork out alot of money for this surprise thing. So yup,please takecare of the red watch and the keychain bear,and the notebook of memories i made on my own,very well. iloveyou.♥

In school,sabo-ed by waterrrrrr.

While waiting for cab.

Tasha being blindfold.Cutting cake.

Opening the notebook ive made and my present to her,♥

Sayang kaaaau.♥

Tasha being sabo by chocolate cake(Y)

PIctures taken after sabo-ing each other.

Pictures taken by the beach.

Zaki and Nasha♥

Hamzah♥

Zaki♥

Ain and Hamzah♥

Nabilah♥

Nabilah and Ain♥

Farihin.♥ (Mind my fringe)

Ishqal and Faat.♥

Farihin♥

Deeyan♥

Ishqal and Tasha♥

Nabilah.♥

Nabilah & Deeyan.♥

Was booooooored. Look at my happy face,lol.

Ain & Zaki.

Tasha & Deeyan♥

Nasha.♥

Zaki♥

Rozaime.♥ Well,my dare was to hug him,lol.

Syafaat.♥ A new friend joined with us.

Ishqal,Me,Farinasha,Nabilah.♥

Nabilah & Zaki.♥

Deeyan♥

Farihin.♥

Farinasha and Nabilah.♥

Candid,i was fooling around.

Zaki made a happy birthday using sand.

Farinasha's dare was to hug Ishqal.

Tasha's third kiss to me.♥

I was bored cause the spin the bottle didnt point at me.

Zaki's dare was to kiss Tasha's hand.

Syafaar's dare was to hug Tasha.

Zaki & Tasha. ♥

They insist on taking pictures while sitting on the road,lmao.